i got sth to say after visiting my cca forum...
read some posts about the nomination thingy and it suddenly saddens me...
not that i'm in pms..haha, but i know what mades me sad...
it dawns on me that of all people who apply for the main comm thingy, not all wanted to get in.
some submitted their forms all bcoz of one word "try".
what does it means? "try"
i find myself turning cold towards these idea of trying all boz it seems fun and the person may not get in afterall.
cold not bcoz i dun like ppl who try.
but it's the aftermath of it.
when somebody who try doesnt get wad they wanted to try for, they can/may get upset over it.
but one thing i wanna argue in defence is that if you're juz trying, no point getting angry when u din get in.
everybody have their dreams, though not always succeeding in getting wad they want, but it's still afterall a dream that might happen someday.
no offence for the above post, plus no arrowing to anybody.
juz that it hurts me when i kept reading the forum post related to this topic...

anyway, i got thru the nomination, that's why i have such feeling for it...
it's always my dream to join lsct as a cca, i wanted to be part of them like a main comm thingy...
not that i have high ambition, but i really wanted it...
it's a dream for me.
even if i din get in eventually, i know i've come that far.
i know i'll be sad, i know i'll be disappointed but i know i've did my best for my dream.

from another view,
if i get in, i'm pretty sure somebody will be worried for me...
one, there's someone inside.
two, it's too politcal from outside view.
three, i might juz commit to lsct more than anything.

but if i do get in,
i'm sure i'll lurve myself more than ever.
it made me feel that there's really this family in my heart.
i'll commit to it more than anything.
i'll make sure i wont go power-thirsty in there.
i'll still make time out for my dearest.

you know how much i lurve you.
do trust me.
believe in me.
i miss you badly, real badly.
been 27 hr since i heard you, seen you, felt you.
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