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Thursday, August 31, 2006

i feel unappreciated
i feel bad
i feel i'm useless
i feel i've got nth better to do

can't do this,
can't do that

i simply jus like yesterday more than today
i have to say,
i like working with the supervisors nonetheless
but there is always a preference to whom i like more

let's jus hope tmr will be a better day
without rain
gloomy it can be, but no rain pls.
no more rain pls pls pls

so worned out
my dear fren have already clocked hours and hours of OT in 4 days.
oh well..more's to come, i guess

hoping for something to do tmr,
hoping i'll be attached to the supervisor who can teach me more
again, all of them are good
but personal opinion, i jus feel more comfortable with some of them

shall i bring umbrella tmr, hoping it wont rain if i bring...??

a few more weeks to go, and we're all cleared
work hard, frenz

and yes, be good!

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Monday, August 28, 2006

argh..
i'm sleepy...
i'm tired...after this i'll go and sleep.
tired at iap but guess wad?!
1st day nth much to do and i'm sleepy.
manz..
too much air-con for orientation
not enuff food for lunch
nth to do will get the results of tireness in me
manz...
i hope there's really sth to do tmr.
at least sth, sth small, i dun mind
lol
till then

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

i couldnt believe that my iap is starting tmr
and i didnt want to believe that i'm left with 6 more months for my poly
and i wont see any hlm frenz for 6 whole months, probably.
manz...

seen atirah's blog, made me feel sadder lah, kinda starting to miss them even b4 my iap starts.
omg...
i shall miss my fellow lsct mates,
lsct lecturer
HLM friends
my dearest...
omg...

may time flies 6 months ahead and then slow down.
i wish

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Friday, August 25, 2006

been out these few days, from tuesday till now...from day till night.
manz...
i'm playing too hard, i guess.

1st on my wil wil..
so cute. lol
but my **** camera spoil..all i could do is capture on phone..
humph...

ytd, hanging out wif hlm clique.
haha...
usual
6 of us ytd.
went bowling, arcade, walk walk, talk talk.
haha.
let's see who's there

model
sakeenah

jes in action

peg learning the technique of rolling the ball

atirah looking at the direction of the ball is heading to

essie in action, and wif a pose =x

my bowling shoes(rented)

And our scores, i've got 92! well, pretty nice, since i got the 2 strikes. but kinda lose the feeling initially

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Monday, August 21, 2006

he is so so so cute
so so so handsome
oh my gosh...
and WTH my camera decided to flare up and me
yucks.
so many pictures all gone
formatted the whole memory card inorder to save the camera
oh shitty
but it's still nice to see him
handsome handsome wil wil.
love him to bits.

my dearest gonna be so upset upon seeing this again.
=)

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

been pretty quiet
been up and down
been thru a whole lot of shit
and the only thing that could cheer me up is probably this evening, i guess
and i hope.
oh well...

he's the boy
he's the boy whom i liked
he's the boy who i cant get
he's the boy who's been living in my heart
where he'll not be taken away.

i so love him

haha, okok..he's not mine then.
he's just another boy.
i really really wish he'll get well soon.
i so wanna hear your voice over the mic

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Friday, August 18, 2006

went to school today to submit our dear model.
and yay!!!
I'm left wif a paper on monday!!
wheeeee...am so glad then there's only one paper for me.
1 week of holiday and i'll be doing iap.
6 months.
hoping for sth good.
6 months will be a waste if there's nth more than getting paid.
haha...oh well...
i'm so gonna miss my poly life...
oh man, dont wanna think so much bout it...
but still...

coming into poly was my choice
coming into poly all alone
yet going out wif memories and friends
hate to say graduation would a happy but one of the saddest point in life yet again.

oh, thanks to my dearest Atirah, for the ride to bukit panjang.
haha
=D

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

out wif dearie ytd, few hours later after i gt home from sch.
haha, went to eat breeks, walk walk, bought him his b'day gifts.
finally.
haha, hope it compensated him for 1 day late.
oh well..
i'm starting to like your company more and more.
loving u more and more each day.

but wait, i love pan pan more.
it's a fact.
haha, which u cant deny.
=P he's coming to singapore, and i'm so gonna see him!!!

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

oooh...
did i say my pan pan coming to singapore!!??
whahaha...
nice nice..
handsome handsome
wanted the SP campus concert tic, but cant get it.
then Jes real lucky today!
helped me got a pair of tic for me to go his concert.
nice Jes.
haha.
thanks so much
really appreciate it.
next time go sentosa liao, treat u nicer la
haha...maybe treat u eat.
haha

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haiz..
so i din went out today
pretty disppointing for dear..
i guess..
his b'day
and i'm at home..
phew..
jus pretty glad tt i met him ytd..
at least, not so bad..i hope...

i'm so in love with you, dearie

and then somebody told me he broke off wif his girl...
how the hell could i feel sad for him when he doesnt even seem to be bothered.
maybe it's better off like that.

oh...world peace pls

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

and btw i hate somebody
someone who i cant and wont named.
i just hate you.
cuz u lied.
i hate liar

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and so ytd, went to school...
did project...till 3 plus, 4 like tt..

felt so bad...wasnt in the best mood la...
but i still went out and meet him.
and guess wad?!
i went to church!!
=D
ate at AMK...
and we took his cousin's bf car go supermarket then head to his aunt's house
played majong...
hmmm...i seriously dunno how...
not even now...
after an hour of looking and playing...
hahaha...

feel better now la..
next time i'm going to take chiyo's picture.
that dog is so darn cute.
hahaha...
chiyo is his cousin's pet dog.
6 months old.
bounced and jump around. haha.
and it is the only dog i dared to approach..
it doesnt bite, doesnt bark...
it only licks, haha..
and thatt expression of hers...
oh my goodness...it'll jus melt u...
chase away the sadness in you.
heez..

oh...then they sent me home by car..
haha. thanks thanks...
=)

and one more thing,
wil wil's coming to singapore
omg...and he going to SP
i really hope to get tic there.
aw....he's so handsome, and unresistable...

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Friday, August 11, 2006

hmmm...lpm test today...
full of "hmmm" question, am so stunned...
ew...
haha, took a pic of converse shoes from our class!!
so many, so nice. haha.
if i'm not wrong, peg's, essie's, jes's, mine, nizam's, nadia's and i dunno who liao.
maybe win's. haha

then went galileo cafe makan.
7 of us...
then me and peg went lib. to watch movie...
maid in mahattan.
pretty nice.
headed for floristry class after tt.
cant wait.
haha..
well, B+ today.
not bad.

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

so i went to school early this morning
reached clementi and it starts drizzling
yucks..
but i still headed to school..
while doing the watering halfway, it starts drizzling again..
then i thought maybe i'll pack up then..
but i look up the sky,
no...it's still bright..
i'll water them, my loves..
then came the drizzling again, heavier this time round
so i gave up watering and left for home..
so shitty...
wanted to go out initially but a change of plan...
reached the bus stop, saw my bus passed..
and i thot how unlucky could i be?
(having been splashed by water at the construction site at my house area, then slipped and almost fell near the mrt station)
now the bus passed, and still it didn't stopped...
the sun shine so ever brightly,
my plants are HALF watered by me!!!
so they did not have enuff water till jes goes to school in the evening then...
haiz...
came home and almost slipped at the traffic junction.
WTH...i cant believed this...
manz...
so heated up...

then a fren...an old fren of mine came back to me, sms me..
asked for some things tt couldnt be done...
and got me into such a terrible mess again..
having explain and explain
until he finally seem to go off...
manz...

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Monday, August 07, 2006

damn
damn
damn
once again...things are falling back into the same mess
same old mess

and i hate myself now
why?
cuz i dun feel one bit of sorry in me
not one bit.
asses...
i'm sorry if u had to hear this.

i wish they're out of my life.
the whole bunch of ppl...
sometimes...
damn
damn

damn the group of them

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Saturday, August 05, 2006

ok, freaking...

1st, report submission as follow:
FYP-monday
LPM-Tuesday
LD-the following week
Marketing-14th Aug

all requires presentations
freaks

next, i hate this.
seriously.
i hate doing this and thinking of this.
i dun like it..
sometimes, i wish i wasnt on earth.
well, sometimes.
not always, there're still ppl who seems to be thinking of me anyway...
arghz...

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

oh my freaking...
oh okok...
no swearing..

well, i juz cant understand what i'm doing.
oh perhaps what have i done.

I seem to attract some unnecessary attention
really...
one after another
arghz..
pretty mixed up now...
not that i'm choosing over choice.
but i've already got one great bf.
why would i bother to get another one??
haiz...ppl dun ask me why or wad happen now?
i'll tell if i want to.
really...and i wish i dun have to go thru this..
i really wish...

to put it simply "I'm not a great gf, go for other people. For god sake."

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