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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

arghz...reached home at 2300 ytd.
so late...my parents aren't too happy abt it...
then wad's more...i suppose he went home right under the rain...feel so bad...
so guilty...
had a long day ytd...
a not too happy day for me either...
life do sux sometimes..and i dont know why...
cried again ytd...
guess...i'm "unstable" le...send me to the hospital ba...=P
haiz...life goes on...
i juz have to admit it...
and in less than 30 minutes, i'll be having my presentation...this will bring me down to one more project and i can then study le....oh manz...

later ss day, still nt sure if i'm going...

uoy ssim i
but so wad??
i cant do anything much...
it's no longer within my limits...
no longer...
i'm whining and i guess only my "mummy" can tolerates them now....
arghz...my heart has gone into crying again...quietly...softly...but hardening...
i'm no longer me...

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Saturday, August 27, 2005

nth much to blog actually...
juz wanted to post sth for my lovable dear dear...
thanks for coming to visit me...
it was great...
and it finally melted my heart...
been longing to see you and u finally appear before me...
though i was at a loss of words...(i tried to hide it) by taking u as a customer then...
haha...
.uoy evol i
thank you...
*hugs*

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Friday, August 26, 2005

yesterday no more lect, so straight away came home after pasir ris park trip.
sent my photos for projects to printing.

today, prac cancel.
came home after 10 a.m.
haha, went to buy a pair of new shoes, i think it's cute lah.
haha, then went for a hair cut...
it was horrible...juz hope i dont get killed by dar...
oh manz...was quite short...
boo...

continuing on projects...
finally settle my PPE today and submitted...
still got loads more to go.

.uoy ssim I, yenoH
been more than 48hrs since i last saw u...
and the hrs juz keeps counting on...
been hrs since i hear ur voice...and it continues like that too...

...ouy evol I
life still goes on....

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

i wonder if u missed me....
i wonder wad's wrong....
my life's spinning too fast.
i cant stop...

i missed myself...
the usual me....
my autocad gotta be re-doing them...
arghz...

save me and bring me away...
away from this fairyland that i pictured myself in...
no more being innocent...
no more being naive...
no more childishness...
no more angry-ing....
i'm gone and shall be gone...

.uoy ssim I

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Monday, August 22, 2005

had my I&E project meeting today...finally i would say.
anyway, there wont be presentation juz for our class...so well, one project down.
my PPE reports all finishing soonz... so half down...
NM sort of done but havent presented, half down again.
PM, one havent printed and not totally done while the other havent even research, so not done.
autocad, not done, dead.
tmr, autocad and jap tests. gonna die...
then thurs, PM test.
next week, PPE test. haiz...

got this in mind on the way home today...

i dun wanna stay in my fairyland anymore, i'm forsaking them...
cuz that land isnt a land, it's like a sea instead and i'm in the middle of it...
i couldnt stop or i'll drown, i'll have to swim on...
i'm tired, really...all these stress...i'm drowning...
i hope someone would be able to understand me now and lend me a hand,
bring me to your land, where there's earth. i wanna stand on it...sit on the ground and rest...
i cant go on anymore...
when no one understand you, it's like being alone in the middle of the sea, searching for a land where u could go to...
i wanna rest...save me from all these water...i dun want any fairy anymore...

i wish u'll be able to understand my situation now...i'm drifting off...
i don't know how to explain and i dunno when you'll feel wad i feel...
but i'm going gone...you gonna miss me real soon if this goes on...
cuz i'll be trying to make my day 30hrs by then...had no more time and i'm sorry for it...

.uoy evol i, yenoh
.oot ssim ssim

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

hmm...wasnt feeling well on sunday...
but still went off to my grandma's house...

got quite disappointed with them lah...
dunno how to say...
yes, i'm studying HLM, and i'm going to be a gardener if u say so.
GARDENER!!! i hate to say it...i'm a horticulturist, mind you.
and i'm in POLY! Fine??! not JC.
aw...
awful...

then ytd, we went out...
cuz it's his birthday!
haha, met a number of his frenz.
well, not too bad. haha.
did have fun.
hope u have fun too! =P

miss u dearie

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Saturday, August 13, 2005

i'm in a good mood today...
whee...
haha...
juz gt back my payslip and saw this new sentence on it...
been getting payslip for more than 2 years annd this is the first time i saw this.
and manz, i was elated...
i gt paid extra as the best hospitality crew of da month...
haha...=P
though not much, but i prefer to think that at least somebody appreciated wad i did.
and i'm pretty glad.
dunno who but i'm guessing on my fav manager!

so damn nice if the person is really him.
oh manz...
cuz he increase my pay
then i gt this now.
and he looks cool.
wahaha...
manz, lurve him.
haha.

am glad ur work paid off.
miss you lotz.
=)

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Friday, August 12, 2005

arghz...am so so tired...
oh manz, today's the 2nd day i almost fall asleep in lect.
ew...ytd, doze off and copying lect notes at the same time, feel so pro...but then only to find out wad i've been doing only when the class is near ending...
found out that half of my notes are un-readable...and it 's not juz that, i didnt even know wad i'm copying...
further checks with my classmate and i find my writting too off the actual word.
eg. actual: trace
i wrote: twice(after re-reading my words a few times)

then today, another early morning lect...the lecturer juz drift off...
the slide was showing the topic we'll be touching on, only the title. he managed to keep his speeches on that slides for at least 15 minutes. oh manz...i didnt sleep. really...
but 1/3 of the lecture, i'm stoning...didnt know wad he is saying...stared thru the screen...
haiz...

projects getting damn bad now...really...
too much to handle...

on the way home, on the train, you cant imagine this...
it's awful...there's a pool of diarrohea on the floor...
haiz...while going off my station, i heard this from a passer-by.
i saw that guy in the train fainted and then he passed motions...

so, that was why that thing was there when i got onto the train...
something struck me hard then...
it reminds me of my scar near my chin...
i wonder if the person is alright now...
*blesses him*

cant go into maple now...doing patching or sth...
am still considering whether to go for training on wed or not...
feel like running...but projects very tight now...
haiz...

if only you were here, i'll be able to look deep into your eyes.
even it's forever, i'll make sure i'll not doze off like wad i did in my lecture.
it's my promise that i make.
miss you, baby...

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Monday, August 08, 2005

finally...deveoped my needed photos le. heez
didnt have class today, went back to school to submit my tutorial...
then went out for a movie with my dear before coming home...

miss ya, honey...
someone misses me too...i suppose.
=P

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Saturday, August 06, 2005

been some time since i updated...
hmm...yoshii left last month...kinda miss him...
miss having verbal fight with him....wahaha...well...

hmm...was working today...
tired lah...the sales not too bad today...
busy enough but not too busy ba...

miss my dar so much...humph...

was thinking of lynn...don't know why...
i really really hope you'll be strong...there's always us if you need a shoulder.
i'm sorry if i neglected you when you need me most.
i'll make sure i'll be there this time round...
dun stop smiling and believing in yourself...

i'm not working tmr!! heez...some more i'll get paid. haha, took my annual leave.
heez. *grins* haha, same for the next sunday!
whee... =P

by the way, sth came into my mind today...
i suddenly recalled this conversation...
"when are we getting married?"
==>> soon, perhaps...haha
half a year has passed...
tmr going to be our 5th month anniversary...
heez.

baby, i miss you.
lurve ya till da end of time!

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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

feeling damn stressed...
look at the time now...11.33 at night...
oh manz...
juz reached home about one and a half hour ago...

shitty...
been so long since i blogged...
so many assignments...
projects...
contract...
presentations...
exams...
tests...
oh my freak...

as usual...i cried again...
i guess it's really stressful lorz...
plus no one or not much people feel wad i'm going thru ba...
no one understands me...

haiz...going off to sleep and rush off to class tmr...

dearie, i'm sorry for everything...
sorry that i fell that deeply in love with you too...
i'm complicated...not simple...

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