- My Life Story ;

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

so i'm nt in a smiley mood today.
again?! some would say...
yes, but today's it caused by somebody else.

she's really out to discredit me and jes.
evil, mad woman.
humph..
and tmr will be another day.
yucks.

anyway, did a small bouquet.
mini size.
Height 130mm X width 90mm.
such a mini cute one.
did felt proud of it.
esp. it's one made up of scrap paper and wrapper.
=P

Tata.

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Friday, January 26, 2007

haiz... bad mood...
again...
cant understand y some ppl jus like to give unclear instruction and expect things to be done properly.
yet when asked abt the instruction, the face jus turned black.
i hate you.
seriously.
jus before i leave the place of attachment, i shall learn to hate you.
nobody else but you.
always spoiling my day,
my mood,
my appetite
yet i have to eat lunch with u everyday
F*** you la.

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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

well well...
another not so good day.
thanks ar, to someone.
when u're trying to teach us, would u mind ur own body language and the words u choose to say first?
For god sake, we gt reprimanded for nth la
it's ur mood swing...
maybe i should remind u female have their menopause, but i din know urs happened at around 30 yrs old.
manz....
jus sit there n be quiet la.
sian diao
now seeing u spoil my mood le.
i sure hope, for the next few days, no more lunching with you.

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

will you please trust me?
will you not nag at me?

can i concentrate in solving my problem now?
can i not be given more problem?

let me think on my own
dont make me think your way

i have my mind, my thinking, my decision.
life's aint fair
but we're trying to make it fairer,
arent we?

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ok.
so i wasnt in the perfect mood
i'm not the usual me.
and the funny thing is i dont really understand wad's wrong with me
wad affected me, wad happen and all...

maybe i know a little part on what went wrong...
thanks to my "seller"
pangseh me.
only tell me when i asked. thanks ar.
i'm really fed up lah.
as in, i was going to confirm everything and this happen to me.
idoitic.

then next how many times must i mention,
is not that i'm unwilling to help
it's tt i cant help.
understand, my dear manager.
wth lah.
haiz.

lots of things happened
and lots more are happening.
oh life, you're too cruel to me at times.
please stop letting these happen to me.

btw thanks Jeslyn, Adelyn, Joseph, Huinee.
you peeps are the only few who actually felt i'm in deep shit kinda of mood.
you peeps are the only people who i can try and relate what happen now...
thank you.

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Sunday, January 21, 2007

haiz
bad day
hard to compromise
almost ended up "fighting"
was like in a up and down mood la.
pardon me for scolding anybody now or wad.
some to think of it,
i think i better try and control my temper
it's getting pretty bad, i know.
cuz of the things i'll be handling...

1 D&D to think of.
1 trial camp trying to go to.
plus
i'm taking up a full time job as well as a temp job
plus a temp business to take care of.
now i finally feel what it is to start a business from scratch
really.
it's so vexing.
if i could, i would have my way.
but no, this is not right...
i need friends.

one day, my life will be taken over by work.
then i'll lose my life, the freedom, the happiness all because of money
what's life anyway??

did i have one in the 1st place?
i wish i did.

could someone pls show me more concern?
someone, anyone.
i'm losing me.

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

ok, so they've vetted my report
and i've submitted my report
manz....
been so busy la
bee so tired
back aching now, probably din slp well ytd...
wrong positon or sth.
haiz...

went to sch
had fun la
esp with Ms Tek, haha, my fav lecturer
=)
seriously, there's nth to complain abt her.
i'm gonna miss school
miss attachment,
miss friends,
miss juniors....
miss everything...

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

jus read this it on my friend's blog....
from rena, found it meaningful, so jus copied it out....
hope she dun mind.
haha

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go,
she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she love the most,
she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries b'cos of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcos of your decision,
you'll ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of you,
When she cry b'cos of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.

Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity,
Infront of you,
And b'cos of you?

She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not b'cos she wants sympathy or pity,
She cry,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

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some things are not meant to be said neither should it be typed out.
cuz it'll always happen opposite of what ever that's being said/typed.

had a lil arguement ytd.
a small one.
everything's fine now.
*phew*

and this afternoon, jes n me were like wishing for rain,
cuz it's way too sunny to be out there doing pruning...
the sky turned dark, and i did said sth wrong so the sun came out...
till 3 o'clock during tea break time, then it rained...
my goodness, lucky it rained...
can die doing those stuff.
*sighs*

had lunch with a couple of supervisors,
somehow, i'm starting to feel i'll miss them...
somehow, i feel that i'll be lonely during lunch time soon...
soon...
arghz....
i'll miss them, i know i will

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

been sometimes since i blogged.
haha, like 2 days lorz.
=D

well, been coming home with the company of dearie these few days.
haha feel so xing fu la.
even my mum is like, Wow! He's free these few days ar?
haha.
=)
i could only answer, i'm happy and it's good enuff.
i shouldnt ask more.
=P

missing u, honey

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Sunday, January 14, 2007

hmmm..went out ytd...
well, in a way
haha, cuz i went for their GLs outing at sentosa
so i kinda went straight after work there

was a lil emo la
cuz i dunno them well
pretty lucky tt i went with adelyn.
then met up with huinee, Jessica, Pei Wen...etc la
kajiao...hmmm...maybe bully ron, ben(mofo), jess and so on la.
haha.
they had pizza for lunch...like at 4pm.

the GLs girls are like so chio la,
the boys are hunks.
hmmm...all right... shall say nth more than tt.
haha.

well, till then, friends.

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Friday, January 12, 2007

is thinking an offence?

I'm thinking.
really

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Thursday, January 11, 2007

haiz
not in the best mood today either
my time on the island is getting shorter

might go part time for a couple of days to help out
depends
have to arrange
manz....tmr will be another day
another grilling day
humph

btw, thanks dar for sending me home
though i waited nearly an hour...
well...to be frank, it's worth it la.
haha, i know i told u it's not worth it.
but it's jus me, k?
i love twisting some facts to you only.

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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

arghz...
i serously finds her irritating now
and she's really evil...
really...
with those small actions in front of my officer
i'm left with a month to go
and this kind of shit happens to me.
arghz...

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Tuesday, January 09, 2007

a step nearer to what i wanted, perhaps what we wanted
my partners are working hard
so am i, haha.
i dun wanna bring any trouble to the guys, really
they're nice.
nice men.
combed the library for my books
helped with my business proposal and all
man, i seriously am lucky to have them as partners.
=)

and yes, my partners are all anonymous for now...

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

i'm stress
yes. i am.
and i'm tired.
really

the load is killing me.

"Is jealousy a form of love??"

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Friday, January 05, 2007

been a few days since i blogged or even come online.
haha, well
been busy with the business plan coming up.
and the report, omg, i havent touch one bit.
yucks.
and i have to submit early for vetting before submission.
omg.

photos for the sample bouquets will be up pretty soon
any comments will be greatly accepted
plus, i might require helper for this event
might, anyone interested, do contact me.
i'll have to discuss with my partners before confirming.
well, have a great day, peeps!

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Monday, January 01, 2007

ok...
one thing down on a brand new day, on a brand new year.
happy 2007, peeps!!
=D

anyway...
not in the best of mood now...
the above was great but now...whatever i'm typing below is causing the not so good mood i'm suffering now...

manz...
i cant stand it.
it's a brand new year, and we started off by being mean with words towards each other.
is this how we'll be in the future?
i wouldnt want to dream of tt...
really....
i thought u would have understand how early i could wake up, how early i would go off to bed.
i try my best to understand ur situation too...
but sometimes, things just went horribly ugly, what could i do...
arghz...
i was discussing abt heaven being fair ytd with my brother.
i believe they're fair, cuz they always send ppl down with goodness and evilness together.
all over the world.
nobody is perfect.
but isnt that sth exciting that all people wish?
if everything is fair and perfect, wouldnt life be boring?
wouldnt everyday be the same?
there wont be fun, would there?
arghz...well well...

-anyway, heaven always send angel to me when i'm feeling down.
always. i dont understand why. i'm no angel to the person, but somehow this angel always pop up at such timing. Life...-

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