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Sunday, April 29, 2007

lots to write for today...
many thoughts on the train ytd after some tele-conversation with dear jeslyn.
haha.
then after eading some blog post of adelyn, something made me wanna post too.
it's important.
but 1st thing, first.

ytd, was on the train and blogging all thoughts into my handphone
here goes:
"0710hrs, 27th april 2007

Trust=believe
it used to be so simple
but it no longer is

i used to give eveyone i know the basic trust.
100%. i believe them

but somehow, somewhere, somebody betrayed my trust in human.

now i've decided.
trust should be earned.
it's not supposed to be given just like that.
at least when someone betrayed my trust, it wont hurt so much anymore.

i've just lost all my trust in everyone, except my family and my love.
please let me trust u peeps, for u'll be the only ones closest to me now.

Trust.
What's that now?
Trust= earn to make people believe"

Next, on adelyn's post.

i believe u feel dissappointed.
so am i.
i dunno if u know or u feel it or not.
but come on, it's hard, i'm still struggling because i cant go for any outings.
i believe i still have my passion for the club.
afterall, it's where u bacome my longest friend i had in poly.
afterall, it's where i met my love.
my friends.
my crush.
my teams.
my juniors.

i've always longing to go for the outings.
but i have my commitments, some stuff just have to come first before others.
i'm not saying that GLs means nothing or not as important as other things.
i kept asking why i didnt go for camp, for outing.
why nobody understand the passion i have for the clubs.
i wanted to go badly.
everytime.
but something restrained me.
something i couldnt explain.

and the outing, u were mentioning abt only a certain grp of ppl turn up for the batch
everytime.
hiaz.
i wish i could explain this.
they're the people who attend almost all the outings and camp now, for our batch.
i'm not saying they're the cause that our batch of ppl seldom turn up anymore.
but u and i know,
it's a barrier that some of our friends dont wanna break through.
just like ice breaking.
some ppl just doesnt wanna make a move, and we couldnt help it.
we could advise.
and i believed i've tried.
ended up in arguements and hurt all feelings.
ended up i couldnt go as well.

girl, i understand how u feel.
we're both caught in the middle.
going or not.

i miss gls.
as much as u do.
that passion...

by the way,
i miss Andre.
esp after reading a friend's blog.
manz.
all of a sudden, thought of him...
funny.
i wanna go Aussie 1 fine day too.
(girl, u on ma?

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