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Saturday, September 22, 2007

if you do not want everyone to know anything,
do not let anyone know everything

dear told me that ytd, after my much complaints abt my day.

ytd, i had the worst working day i had eversince i started working at the age of 16
i was thinking, those innocent days at the F&B outlets, those jokes, those colleagues i had. neverending.

then perhaps, my attachment. those people took me as a students, they played their own game, but they kept me out which i'm pertty glad now.

then my previous company, where i learned my basic, where i really started out, where i left with reasons abt management.
but i never had my game played like that. i never felt this pain before.

each place i worked at, i took care telling myself, they're my family. a big one.
everyone will be looking out for me.
thet'll take care of me.

but i'm wrong, perhaps. those innocent thinkings arent meant for a adult working world.
you work, and you're alone.
you fend for yourself, they said "Go ahead, i'll support you"
but at the end of the day, they might have meant "Go ahead, finish up my work, i'll do the defending only if my name isnt in it when u get into trouble."

i'm dissappointed.
early morning, i couldnt get my things summitted with pride,
next up, my gut feelings told me, today wont be a smooth day after reading some mails.
then my phone, my colleague kept using them when he has his own bloody phone just beside mine.
i was pretty worn out for patience, and i decided to let him know abt this matter.
only to be told
"phone is meant for convenience, does that means if you arent here and u have to make a call, you'd rush back to ur own office phone just to make a call?"
DAMN YOU, ALRIGHT
then, some personal stuffs.
then this phrase "Work is work, personal is personal. dont bring them in together. i dont do that" it hits hard on me. cuz after some thinking, perhaps, that's the way to work, and i have to learn that in the shortest possible time.

then questioning starts, did u bypass somebody?
NO
did u report this and that matters to ur superior?
NO
are you sure?
YES

so i was feeling really upset, my colleague doesnt believe me, and started all these.
all these before my lunch.

then a freaking "course" my ""dear"" colleague summited together with his name.
ended up he pangseh me, the one with the phone problem.
i went alone anyway, to find out that it's a sharing session, not a bloody course that i thought it would be.

in the end, my conclusion for the day...well.

LIFE SUXS FOR ME YESTERADY
TOTAL FAILURE

if i do not want anyone to know anything,
do not tell anyone about anything

I just bought my "Taiwan Hubby", Will Will's CD
God Bless

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