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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

damn it.
kena virus.
send to all my online contacts..
but yes, finally i removed it.

sickening...
and my colleague...
thanks hor...always creating trouble..
haiz...

whatever

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Monday, October 29, 2007

oh boy...
i'm feeling down...
oh boy, i'm thinking of letting you go.
for your happiness
at the same time, i cant bear to...
and i assume you feel the same...

the words were mentioned yesterday.
cried for a moment...and i stopped myself...
every now and then...
we're fine, friends...

but if friends, you're with me and i kept silent for that few moment...
well...maybe let me be for a while.
i'm just searching my thoughts.
whether i can be that good girlfriend for my boy.
whether i'm up to that standard to.
whether my character will change over time to what my boy loves.
even if i cried, i supposed it'll be my norm these few days.

one of my friends already had this experience.
i suppose it scares him...
all of a sudden, lost in thoughts...
teared so quietly...
well...it's norm...
shall apologise...sorry

even my mum got worried now...
told me whatever happens, dont do anything silly.
there's still her who i can have,
mommy, i love you.
always there for me.
friends, always there for me.

sweet, i wish happiness to be with you. always
whatever happens, i'll still say i love you.
for our good, i love you.
i still do.
if i can change, i will...
oh boy, i love you.

my doremon.
be there.

-love

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Saturday, October 27, 2007

still on course ytd.
and after that, decides to head back office.
in case, all those mails waiting for me to deal...
and yes, there are...
lots...
can actually leaves at 5 ytd normally.... but with that course, might be able to leave at 4.30pm...
i ended up leaving at 6+. act smart la... sick...

then meet dar and his frenz...
steamboat, bowling...
til like 1+, near 2am then reached home...
funny, am not too tired at this moment...
i thought i would..
well...

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Thursday, October 25, 2007

on course today.
so-so
lucky gt YC to accompany me....
haha.
thanks ar...bring me go my class, and lunch.
haha, always trouble u.

i'm thinking....of sth.
it's fate that we met.
it's fate that up till now, we're still friends.
been a good long 4 yrs since i last seen you.
have no idea how you are now.
but seeing those msg-es appear...
i guess you're still you.

Kindergarden mates.
tuition mates.
my cousin's classmate
my ex-classmate's classmate.
goodness, 4 yrs.
shall we meet?
i shall leave it to fate again.
i wouldnt want to be given choice to make.
momo, what do you think?
Mickey, wad do you think too?
maybe i shouldnt ask too much.
=X

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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

sickening...
still the same...some aint good ppl around me.
working env still fine so far.
at least gt my few colleagues to entertain me for lunch n all.
tks, peeps. (though u wont really see this post, anyway)

went for a mtg this late noon, so-so.
well...life's like tt.
tmr on course, gd n bad again.
haiya... =X

it's fate that allows people to meet,
it's ourselves to make things happen.
it's everything to get to know people.
i'm blessed in some ways or another, shant complain so much now.
=)

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Friday, October 19, 2007

Fuck you.
i dun give a fucking damn abt you.
God is watching you.

Idiot.
fucking hell la.
spoil the start of my weekends.
bloody hell....
i thought my site inspection that took me fucking 5 hrs plus(not yet ended), with a late lunch is freaking enough.
head back office and see the bloody way u treat me.
makes me looks and sounds so stupid.
think u 30+ yrs of experience can fucking make me look so dumb huh?!

havent you realise that u lacked the trade experience?
havent you know that i dun fucking give a damn about it.
F you.

and friend, dont bother so much abt me.
thanks for the concern anyway.
i'll deal with the bloody hell myself, my way.

God is watching you
every moment

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Thursday, October 18, 2007

i guess i know wad's the next step.
thanks sweetie for the company tonight.
nice dinner at Seoul Garden
haha.
love

it's better not to talk abt some things now, friend.
live and leave with a happy mood.
cheery.
anything else, let's not talk now.
=)

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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

damn.
i'm getting sicker each day seeing u.
went back to office after a mtg.
what i saw really makes me confirm what kind of person you are.
you used my PC for what?!
your name is registered in my monitor screen that you, bloody hell used my computer when your computer is working so fine.

Freaking angry.
so sarcastic also.
freaks.

and mickey, it's been some time since i confide in you le.
will you be there for me?
even when the journey of mine is rough and gloomy?

aye friend, dont take me as invisible.
i still see, and i still feels.
i'm upset all these problems are falling in now....
really.
i need a talk to settle some issues.

and darling, u too...
cant expect me to wait in the office after working hours, with the bloody hell there...
hmmm...right?
at least w/o him or sth...

God is watching us.
every movement, every moments.
every feeling, every actions.

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

this morning, i'm pissed off with somebody.
really.
com'on, it's my personal matter and it doesnt concern you.
at all.

i only hear more -ve things abt u out there,
ren zai zuo, tian zai kan.
God is watching us. know what you're doing pls.

darkness befalls when i least expected.
i really dont wish to see or feel some things happen
i'm upset. next time, i wouldnt feed anymore info to u.
do me no good.

time to pack up, go somewhere quiet.
be nothing, knows nothing, and do nothing.

shall see and wait for the next move.
Jo, be yourself

sweet, i hope you're fine.
enlisting soon...poor boy.
same for my dear brother...
also enlisting soon

i dun wanna care abt anything now.
just wanna wake up, go to work, get things done prim and proper,
be a gd daughter, be a good gf.
be a gd friend, be one nice colleague, one nice employee, one nice officer.

may God bless me.
I shall listen to You, let me confide in You.
Thank you.

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Sunday, October 14, 2007

i really wish everything's fine now.
at the very least, i rocketed over today.
*prays*

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Saturday, October 13, 2007

awful, still having flu and sore throat.
it doesnt go away. sickening.

To: My dear colleague
if there's ever a need to let me know of infomation, you may tell me.
but if it's nothing more than necessary, i suppose i better not know about it.
you may choose to keep mum about. I'll never know and i suppose and hope it wont spread as well. you better take care of yourself before others.
Rgds, Oi (I dont feel really gd knowing that piece of info, tks)

To: My wish-you're-not-my-partner colleague
Do not say things as you wish.
Sometimes, it's better not for you to even say things out.
choose a better timing to say thing, dont just talk.
talking doesnt make sense when you cant even do it yourself.
stop cutting into people's sentence.
it's known as being courteous.
People around you doesnt like it.
i'm jus being nice to let you know, somehow, some way.
Rgds, Joan (Stop playing the game you set youself, it will nvr wrk with ppl disliking u)

To: My darling
Each time when dark clouds appear, we get over them and carry on the journey
can we always overcome it?
i really hope so.
May God bless us and our family.
I'm missing ya.
Love, Jo (I'm wishing to see you now, every possible moments, let me wrk it out, ya)

To: My fellow Muslim friends
It's your day today. Selamat Hari Raya! Have fun on this great day!
Lots of Luv, Jo

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Friday, October 12, 2007

mc for half day on wed.
my gosh...
terrible sore throat n flu...it's still not fine now.
goodness...
i miss my mommy

anyway, ah gong's discharge!
nice.

and darling...
i really hope we can go thru everything together.
all these fights, could we take it as normal?
hmmm...welll...
anyway, everything's fine now.

God bless us.
=)

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Tuesday, October 09, 2007

i'm deadbeat
now then i appreciate what my mommy does.

and i only did it like today.
manual washing of clothes.
washing machine-ing clothes.
hang up clothes
fold clothes
boil water
fill up bottles
buy breakfast
settle my own dinner

more to come
oh my gosh what a night.
i wanna sleep...
am tired

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Saturday, October 06, 2007

my goodness...
the news finally came...
darling's going to tekong...
and omg, freaking 15 weeks!!
aint coming back until completion of that 15 weeks.
manz...

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through the night, some people work
adding stress to people who's working in the day.

please hear my pleas

let those people work in the say,
give me some space to breathe.

stop sending mails at midnight hours.
stop or maybe just lessen the chance of sending smses about work on weekends.
i see people coming in and going out.
they left for reasons.

let me be

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Friday, October 05, 2007

ahhhh...tired
boring.
lots of work.
lots of time.

ah gong in Emergency ward.
sighs.
mommy going for tour this weekend

lots more to go.
i'm only 20.
for goodness sake.

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Thursday, October 04, 2007

sighs
piled up work
urgent and last min mtg
i can even forget i gt mtg on until a colleague called.
sighs

feedbacks or perhaps complaints
out of kindness to tell me or perhaps nagging
music to sooth mood or perhaps distracting and noisy.
my goodness, i gotta use all the front phrases when it all meant the back phrases to me.

i'm sick

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