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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

had my usual tues/thurs class this morning.
super tired

sleepy eyes thru'out.
*faints*
it's not as if i've been staying up to study or what.
i better clear this paper manz.

now headache, even worse.
just had med, pretty sure that once i starts studying, i'll be wanting to slp again soon.

uni confirmation was sent to me just now...
gotta reply it to confirm, and so many forms.
and i dunno how to reply some of them too..
think better go down to uni soon to clear this up asap.

i'm going to be a certified First Aider/ Certified Arborist / Degree Grad. and everything.
jia you, Momo!!

Blogged @ 9:03 PM
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Monday, March 29, 2010

What's up for my past weekends?

I attended a buddy's 23rd birthday on sat!
BBQ near my place. hahas.
And the weather was "funtastically" made for him.
No rain at all, especially when it has been raining almost everyday at sembawang.
lol.

You guys should have seen how he bacame so old in seconds.
With flour, water from his friends.
and the event sort of end near midnight though i finally gets to wash up at 2am.
dots... it must have been even later for my friend.
Anyway, hope you really had some good fun on Sat, YC!

Next, Sunday...
Darling came over to my house without telling me, and omigosh...
he must have chose the right time.
I was in the midst of getting my baked cheese potatoes cooked, so when he stepped in...
He gets to eat it. muahaha.
And after that met up with YC, we went to catch a movie.
Though quite crappy lines, but we were laughing away our sunday for "Pandora's Box".
Feels cool to relax when one is feeling so stressed up.

Now, i'm left with less than 20 mins to get back to my book...
I've limit myself till 9pm online.
I better get my Arborist Exam passed.
Please bless me.

lalalala. books, notes. Arghz....class tomorrow again!

Blogged @ 8:33 PM
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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Forgive & Forget

Sorry, I do not function like that.
Most often, when i havent even tried to forget incident(s), I will never forgive.
I admit this, I'm petty.

It has been a long day yesterday, and I'm feeling terrible, even till now.

I need a space to rant my thoughts, to vent my frustration or my upsets in a way, and most often I'll end up blogging. Even when I stopped blogging for a long long while, I starts when I have the urge to write/type, the sudden surge of happiness/sadness/anger/busy-ness, etc.

I've just wept myself to sleep this morning, at 3+am.
I admit this, I'm a crybaby.

I'm an attention seeker, I seek for attention.
I can be left alone, but not too long. It irritates me too.

How could you not feel?
How could you tell me everything in the day, and everything just turn opposite in the evening?
What is love? Being generous?
Fine, I admit this. I find love selfish at times.

What is the use of seeking permission, when I couldnt even say no in that kind of situation?
What is the use of standing up and leaving at the moment in time to stop the suffering I've endured throught the hours when all it does is putting us both to shame, and me being a wilful girl?
ok, I admit this, I'm jealous. Awfully jealous and upset.

And i know, I'll probably remember this particular incident for the month or so.

Remember the choice you made when you left us and went away.
The time you kept quiet and listen throughout the conversation a couple of days back.
Remember the incident jsut happen this horrible morning.
I remembered this very very clearly "You're my buddy", it sounds very wrong when I dont feel that since nearly a decade ago.
"You're my buddy", when you got my love one over to your side for so long hours.

Sad to say, if you happen to read the above, I'm never too sorry for blogging away.
If i never get the chance to write/ type my feeling, I'll always be moody and I'm be upset at least for a week, and I will never do this to myself ever since Blog came in.

And yes, there goes our decade of "buddy".
Yes, I'm petty, a crybaby, an attention-seeker, selfish, jealous, upset, love-over-friend kinda girl.
And I do not bother abt anyone else i'm feeling down.
Byebye, "buddy" which have never really existed since the day you left us.

Blogged @ 11:43 AM
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Saturday, March 06, 2010

headache
literally, mentally & physically true.

lots of works seems to fly in unknowingly in the March every year.
and i'm going for my short course in march till april, oh manz.

squinty eyes, high-rise pile of works, flying time,
how am i not to suffer from the usual headache?

sighs.
i wish March will pass by soon.
oh wait, April there's exam, but at least there's a genting trip which i can look more forward to.

What kinda of life is this?
sighs again

Blogged @ 3:07 PM
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