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Monday, February 28, 2005

eh, i really don't know what i'm doing.
i almost cried... really.
but it's not a facial expression.
my heart almost cried, i couldn't find you and all.
but wait, don't feel proud,k? (haha)
cuz juz before my heart really broke down, i saw that light.
my sms report finally said my sms to ur phone was sent.
i realised sth in my heart...now...u meant sth to me.
you're part of me(i think),
you're my listening ear...

eh next, i was bz smsing adelyn and my fren on the bus,hoping that i'll feel better. then someone tapped me, called my name...
he's my senior, he look better today...
but i seems duller today.
wonder why is heaven playing prank on me(always)

you're that light,
but i thought i had extinguished it...
but i saw it glow again...
yet i saw another light,
a different kind of light,
it's faltering... oops, i thougth i saw it extinguish.
i swear i did nth to that light...
my heart started crying...
no one else feels the same way as me...
but then, the light came on again, as strongly as before.
i realised that the first light was all my dream,
a dream not in reality.
ive been waken up by this brand new light.
you're burning...

Blogged @ 6:20 PM
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Sunday, February 27, 2005

"I don't know why,
I wonder what's wrong.
I think I've been moved...
I think I might have missed you...
I think I'm worried about you..."

till now, I have no idea at all. what am i doing??
*back to studies since i've got no idea why i came in here either*

Blogged @ 10:10 PM
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Friday, February 25, 2005

argh, this is getting worse....even my alternate "can-have-break" friday is now cancel... no more alternate need-not-go-school-day.
hmm, today went to school wid Joseph. Haha, time flies manz...maybe it's always better to have company to school ba. chat quite a bit, EZgoing guy, can say everything i want, nv even say anything to stop me.(btw, i know you'll be reading this, take it as a compliment hor)
then after the "argh-two-hour" class, meet my mum, bought my presentation formal clothes le...
the two-hour class really didn't pay much attention to it.
projects dueing soon...
test coming...
exams coming...
presentation coming...
cca planning coming...
training coming...
argh, in summarise, everything coming lah...
haiz...wonder's wad up wid me...
not much mood now...really feel lost,
or perhaps somehow lost.

I'm lost in the story,
there's no one around.
All I see are shadows,
i tried telling them my feeling.
but they never did respond.

seriously in need of somebody to wake me up...

Blogged @ 5:47 PM
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

argh stressing ar... didnt go for cca today, maybe next week won't be going either.
even took leave from work... haiz... stopping everything, think i won't be able to cope with anything for the moment.
but right now, why did i come in to blog when i'm so busy??
all because i wanted to de-stress and perhaps trying to get some inspiration lah.
feeling quite happy since yesterday night.
haha, seriously wanting to ask someone to listen and to sort of chat with.(thanks, Joseph)
eh, one more thing before i sign off from blogging, a poem! haha...

i'm trying all my might to do my things,
to do my work in my own little way.
but inside my mind, nothing stays.
i couldn't remember much about the things i'm doing,
all i had was an image.
nothing besides that image.
right now, i think of nothing besides you.
i wanted nothing besides you.
if only i know where you are,
or who you are,
i'll give in everything just for you.

i'll be glad if you come right now,
save me,
wake me up,
whoever you are...

nothing is perfect, maybe there is, but i've yet to find it.
wake me up, stop me from living in a world of my own.
Don't ever let me stay in a never-exist fairytale story.
life will be good if there's fairytale, but this is the 21st century,
no one live in fairytale anymore. i need a prince but not in a fairytale.
bring me out, i dun ever want to stay in a fairytale w/o anybody.

i'll be waiting...
for my prince.
and i'll be waiting for the day i live in fairytale.

Blogged @ 9:15 PM
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

been long since i blogged.
eh, project due dates all so near.
next week Oral Communication Formal Presentation le.
then DGA also due-ing, LD also due-ing.
Argh, then still gt jap tests and stuffs...
won't even be going for tmr's cca... can't afford to...
haiz, yoshii leaving in march also...
maybe i'll quit soon too...after him...
wouldnt want him to let feel proud as if he leave, i leave also. haha
haiz...been busy lah, so i'm quite sorry if u expect more updates or at least often.
i can only try to...haha...
btw, i got my wil wil's photos le, so near, so shuai. wahaha...

signing out...take care

Blogged @ 9:18 PM
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

phew...wad a day esp after yesterday...
had landscape design today...
no more drawing(good?)
argh, no it's bad. now it's model making...
i dun even know how and where to get the materials now...
arghhhhhhhhhh....
went to my co.
heard that another manager going to be transferred...
s***. always...
but also heard that a crew is leaving, the one who's been making ppl upset,
maybe that's one positive one lorz.
what does my co. mean?? co. means company.
actually in longer form base on my managers and colleague.
it's more suitable to mean known as Manager Over Stress.
sum it up, that's where i'm working.
then those projects are coming in...
datelines are so near...ow....

Blogged @ 8:42 PM
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Monday, February 14, 2005

happy v day to all!
happy v day to myself esp...since i'm so single.
hahaha...
had class today at noon...
wore my new ear rings! new bangle! new t-shirt!
abit wild lah... but i'm trying to stop thinking bout today...
thst's why it's so not me today...
it's so bad...
anyway, i shall explain y it's bad now.

today is V day.
i'm waiting for a miracle to happen...
i'm waiting for a particular miracle...
the miracle which i thought might occur today.
i'm wearing black today...
a colour almost out of my wardrobe...
i really hope i'll see you.
but that miracle nv happens...
till now, i conclude there's miracle in life...
but it's always nv in mine...
maybe what i ask for is too much...
and now i decided to think that having you as that light in my life is enough.
it should be bright enough for me to depend on.
i shouldn't complain more.
and now i think miracle might only happen when i nv complain.
happy valentine day to you, myself and all.

Blogged @ 8:57 PM
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Happy New Year!

shortest blog entry in here. haha.
have fun!

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Thursday, February 03, 2005

I thought I am going to go...
I had plans...
But it's now ruined...
I may not go now...

I thought I am going oversea...
I have a test on that day...
It was fixed and re-planned...
But now, I was told, I might not go afterall...

What the heck is this??
I couldn't believe all these...
I'll be back studying and drawing...
Haiz...

Blogged @ 11:05 AM
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