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Sunday, December 31, 2006

havent been blogging much, but i come online every other day. and i do check my tagboard n so on. haha.
ok...
it 1040hrs now, on my computer.
i still gt abt 2hr 20 mins to reach somewhere.
and hopefully i can make it thru.
when everything goes according to my wish, i shall blog and then say what it is.
really.
feeling rather nervous.
manz...

did a small bouquet of flowers ytd.
need some comments
but due to lack of resources such as flowers available,
and the flower wrapper colour, the outcome is as follow.

starting b4 the bear is wrapped up

then when it's wrapped up

ok, now i need comments. lots of them. haha. even if it's not nice.
=)

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

been raining one whole day
my supervisor kind enuff today to let us stay indoor and help out in the nursery
not that they're always mean.
but they're mean sometimes.

received jes's x'mas prezzie
i'm like omg, i owe her so many presents and this adds on to the list
i'm terribly sorry.
really.

tmr will be another day, let's hope the weather will be better then.
it's pretty cold now.

darling, i miss you.
lots and lots more each day.

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Monday, December 25, 2006

I had a great great day ytd.
it's so fun, though with slight drizzling.
Sky Tower, 4D magix and luge!
haha, the staff seems to be in good mood too.
most of them, anyway.
haha.
if i'm not wrong, thanks Siew Yong for the 1st impression of the island, Siew lin at the counter, Joseph at the luge. not sure if i got all the names right. and many many more thanks to the staff we met ytd. pretty sorry, cant remember all the names though. haha. Merry Christmas!!

Love all the prezzie.
Esp, I love dearie's prezzie to bits. haha.
it was a suprise, i really have no idea u are going to get things so special for me.
I woke up this morning and i still feel so special.
cant help smiling to myself.
i was thinking, maybe we should really grow old together.
I love you, honey!

Merry Christmas to all
hope all wishes will come true
cheers and have a great day.

ps.: Thanks Huinee, Adelyn and darling for the special day ytd. It was really fun and it's been a long time since we meet up like that. Thanks for everything.

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Saturday, December 23, 2006

sometimes i feel i'm going to make a mistake
sometimes i fear, really
i cant stop myself
my superman always tempt me to like him
as my worker

i know it's nv right
and i know i should try and keep the distance
but...
but...the whole story, whole senario of him just plays on in my mind
repeative
on and on

darling, i'm still faithful to you
but i cant keep such a thing away from you
i wont cheat on you, it's my promise to you.
believe me

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whew...
OT yet again
i'm so tired.

well...cant seem to work things out...
i gets heated up so easily, feeling so frustrated these few days.
the planting for the fest can kill
it's no easy job.
each time, i got heated up, i bump into this fellow who cant seem to stop smiling
seeing him makes my work better
slightly
at least there's no black faces
and yes, superman came back a few weeks ago.
well...
life still goes on with or without him

life's turning opposite now..

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Friday, December 22, 2006

had lots of things to write
hmmm...maybe should thanks Huinee 1st, for her cute prezzie
then my supervisor's, (unopened) promised to open only on x'mas

anyway, went to the fest again on wed.
but this time meeting lots more ppl.
Ms Tek, u're getting thinner, gotta eat more, k? haha
but it's really lovely to gather with my classmate, Atirah and my lecturer, Ms Tek.
hmmm...i'm hoping for sth.
sth great to happen and be confirmed in a few days time.
it shall be part of my future.
today is just lovely.
even dearest seems perfect these few days.

havent got things to complain now.
look on the bright side of life

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Sunday, December 17, 2006

went to suntec for the garden fest 06 today
there's so many LD.
so many...
and i'm pretty sure, i missed out some of the designs done.
some booths unvisited.
but i'm heading down again on wed.
=)

saw Atirah on lvl 6 (hope u found ur tag)
then saw Yanto
saw HLM senior, HLM junior
had a glimpse of Yanlu

i simply miss my friends.
so much

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Friday, December 15, 2006

sometimes, i really think i'm blessed
how on Earth could i find so many good teachers in my school life
i simply miss school now, miss my lecturers, my mates, my dearest of course

i'm going for the fest, and my dear Ms Tek seems elated that i'm going on her duty day
haha
she's like our friend
nono, i should say she is one of my friends.
haha

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Thursday, December 14, 2006

a number of hibiscus-es to wow you peeps.
haha. It's huge!!
it's actually Thai Hibiscus propagated in our sentosa Nursery.
=)
cheers

red

white

Pinkish white

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

anyway, last sat went out to orchard.
nice lightings to see.
some pictures to share

Outside Tanglin Mall, the christmas tree is gorgeous.
=)

The lightings on the tree hanging down

In the car, actually.
so loads of lights.
haha
cheers to christmas!!

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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

so life's better now.
but i'm still pretty sure, i not the kind of person who forgives and forgets easily.
yes, i could forgive, but no i wont forget
never.
life's never fair, it's only up to us to TRY and make it fair

been a hot afternoon today, while reading thru some stuffs, i almost doze off.
oh man.
until 3, when there's a lil break, i try and slp for 15 mins.
but no, i couldnt slp...have no idea why
then again back to work feeling sleepy.

anyway, sentosa express! i've been on it.
fast huh? of course.
=)

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

so the fight wasnt over
i thought i could forget abt it, and i almost did
but she didnt, she nv did
it sorts of dissapoint me, really

i confided with my supervisor, with the initial thoughts of approaching the manager.
but i thought it would be a rash decision.
probably.
so i confided with a different person, of different rank.
hopefully, getting a reaction that is not too much over what i expected.

anyway, would doing more field work, and projects outside.
hopefully, things would be better then.
right now, i couldnt bring myself to talk to her, not anymore.
cuz the sulky look and the swinging moods of hers scared me
i didnt wnat her to have another opportunity to have another go at me.
if she decided to report me to my manager, i'm all prepared on what to say
cuz i'm a victim to a large extent,
and i believe i'm innocent, and of cuz i know justice will stand by me.
whatever consequences, i couldnt think now.
and i wont bother anymore,
i only know it doesnt pays off to be kind.
it's the best lesson i had from the current attachment, i'll bring them along with me, even when i graduate.
"it doesnt often pay to be kind."

attachment is just a start to our future, for all people and friends out there, stay stong, believe in yourself, fight for ur rights, dont let them override you.
a little quote from my mum "it's ok to be in this situation now, at least you're learning, and do tell yourself, one day you'll come out stronger than they are. if you're working with the same people in the future, you're in a higher postion than they are, the situation wont ever be the same anymore, they cant bully you, or push you around again"

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Friday, December 08, 2006

i had a very very bad day today...
hmmm...maybe i could elaborate more...
i've always tried to tolerate that auntie at work
so much that i finally sort of "flared up" at her(as assumed by her)
oh come on, i've always given u that respect i thought u should received from me
but no, i'm wrong, very wrong.
the help i've given you, i somehow wished that i nv did.
i didnt know a single sentence can cause arguement
really.
ridiculous.

u said that u are very straightforward, and yes i can see that.
plus u mention that to forgive n forget is what u've always been doing.
that 2nd sentence, i beg to differ. i DISAGREE.
cuz the situation happened in the morning, before 1000hrs.
yet by 1430, u are still sulking, backstabbing me, ignoring me even though i asked u qns in the most polite way possible.

i've been thinking the whole day, at least 9 hrs now.
i finally realised why ur daughter-in-law dislike you.
maybe at first, she thought u are perfect(like wad i initially assumed)
then she later found out that u are not at all likeable(in fact, evil sometimes)
haiz...
December... 3 more months to go, i'll be counting down the days soon.
i wanna leave the place that's like hell.
*prays*

and maybe, i should give both of us another chance.
perhaps, to view u as a devil today was wrong.
maybe.
since it's December(festive season), the more that i should forget abt such things.
i hope u can feel wad i feel.
and hopefully u can think over it too.
i dont wanna be mean to u, esp when u are considered as an elderly now.
ppl might think i bullied u instead.
but i have my piece here to say,
"I wont, and I shall not sit nor stand around for u to bully me, mark my words, dont barking at me"

freak

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Thursday, December 07, 2006

i miss my mum

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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

so it happened to me again
another accident
this time at yishun
and it almost affected me
really
haiz... people are irresponsible, some
they leave thinking their problem could be solved, but no, instead they created problems, so many
i pity the train captains, the train staff
anyway, i wanna thank the outram station staff for the letter and the politeness comparing to other stations
=)

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Monday, December 04, 2006

i cant believe that i'm still far far away from ending my attachment
i always thought it's the best place that one would wish to come
but it has finally proved me wrong
i'm starting to feel the evilness in people,
the scary thoughts they possess
i fear
really
i've got this feeling, i'm one of their victims, one of the youngest somemore
they're starting to assume, and them starting to accuse
they played with my words, twisted them and changed the whole story
so how could i say anything in the future, how could i voice out without being a victim?
the only choice i have, is to keep quiet and stay out of trouble
BUT, my in-charge wants me to speak out more
life's shitty at times
really...

pls get that bitch out of my life
arghzzz...i cant take it anymore, i didnt want to limit myself to minor vulgarities anymore.
humph...

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Saturday, December 02, 2006

a tragedy happened this afternoon...
not sure whether it's been published yet...
but it's definately terrible... really...

can suicide solve problem?
it actually creates more problem,
come on, nothing cant be solved, and u dun go around creating more trouble for others if u're responsible.
now, what's done had been done, i jus hope ppl think before they act
the thoughts of the tragedy just haunts me
may you rest in peace, i hope.
and may your problem be solved.

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Friday, December 01, 2006

i dont believe, neither do i think that perfect life exist
everyday is different for everybody, with no exception
sometimes, i think life is perfect.
but each time, i tried to picture it again in my mind, the evilness of human, every goodness known to me cease to exist after that.
what's happiness?
anyone could give me an explanation, with some real life examples?

darling, i'm missing you.
i dont have a choice, do i?
my heart says no, and however hard i tried to defy myself, i think of you.
looking at my phone only bring tears into my eyes once again.
i so badly wanted to call you and msg you, but each time, i failed myself.
i told myself i shouldnt disturb you when u needed some peace to concentrate.
it's a hard time for us, esp when we're doing different things now.
you're preparing for exams, while i'm fighting hard to survive as an intern
we're learning everyday, all human do.
tolerance is needed.
i'm learning to keep my temper soon.
pretty soon, i shall master it.
will you wait for me?
I miss you, DX.
=)

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