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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

common tests are coming
my projects reports are piling...
my communication are breaking down...
my limit is getting pretty bad..
i cursed when i'm feeling lousy..
sth i dont do...
there's nth else to vent at...
really...
i couldnt get angry, cuz dear dont want me to..
so i din and i ended up swearing...
well, silently...
not loudly...
but i couldnt help it...
im juz simply trapped in an awful world..

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Monday, May 29, 2006

silence does not equate to consent
silence does not means an agreement.
flirting is not a crime
it is not...
but it can boils down to crime...
so much as to call it stealing...
u steal 2 hearts at the same time, hoping to make 2 happy
but only ended in a disastrous state.
Love can be shared only in mass number but never in 3s'
a boy likes a gal
and a gal like a boy.
great.
a boy likes 2 gal, and the 2 gals like him.
disaster.
Love for me, can never be shared with another gender...
never..

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i seriously do not like it...
really...
it's like direct flirting
the way u hate me doing it...
and u did it..
i wish i wasnt there...
but if i wasnt there, i wouldnt know...
i wouldnt...

i'm sensitive, i am.
i cant help it...

I'm in a whirl
but no one cares.
i'm in a whirl on my own
and no one knows.
i'm in a whirl
and i wish the wind can juz blow off my thoughts.
i'm in a whirl in my own little world...

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

i lurve talking to you on the phone.
you nv failed to make my day.
i lurve you, honey

i want my holidays...
manz...

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

well...i heard the results from my frenz...
bad news...
i din make it...
i felt sad, an urge to cry...but no...
i told myself, no way. i've promised myself with wadever result, i cant cry
i gotta stay strong and i did.
i did not drop a single tear and i went thru it.
i'm alright, peeps.
dont worry.
no fear...
jojo's fine.

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

freak you...
it's always like that.
only mummy is great.
all mummy are great.
i think i like ur mum, like now over the phone,
she seems concerned.
haiz...
but u dun seem to give a damn.
okok, i'm being sensitive here and i'm crapping
juz let me use the blog entry like a punching bag now...
juz for now..
arghz

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alright, i've jus got the msg across my little HLM class of yr 3.
*giggles*
election, i really couldnt wait.

good or bad,
i'm finally up for it, no more negative thots.
at least i'm trying.
and yes, a good fair fight is a must.
lastly, all peeps who are finalist candidates or perhaps people who just submit their forms are already a winner on their own.
you peeps had stepped out and tried your best.
winners at heart, let's rejoice!
til tmr, the very least.

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Monday, May 22, 2006

and freak, i could have gone on lvl 35, had i not died about 4 times in 2 hours
it's so yucky.
yes..
the penguins killed me...
so many times while i was trying to heal..

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funny ppl...
how i could gt so f***ed up bcoz of this.
act smart is in you.
trying memorising and i died.
yeah, great

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

went out early in the morning ytd for my baby plants at the shadehouse.
lovely to see them all growing well.

came home later ytd night, felt quite bad actually,
in a way, i reached home after midnight once again in this month.

all i can say that i love every moment i spent with you.
i've learnt to accept changes and trying to adapt as much as possible.
like what had been said to me,
i'll put up a good fight, at least i will be proud of myself.
cheers, Jo.

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Friday, May 19, 2006

well, i've come so far...
and i've nv stop.
and i know i will not

The news of being one of the three finalist elates me...
yet at the same time made me feel evil.
problem here, both of the other 2 candidates are in their 2nd year.
not to my advantages, but still i decided to keep my mind innocent,
that afterall we're all fighting for the 2 seats in the name of LSCT.
and we're competing as a family, there's is no loser, only winners will emerge.

i wouldnt mind that it is yet another not walkover election for me,
cuz i've been thru it for more than once.
up there alone to fend for myself and ended breaking down so badly when i didn't got in last year.
but this year is different for me.
i'm in my 3rd year, seriously, i could do better than breaking down.
cheers, Jo.

I know i can do it, getting in or not shall depends on the vote now.
btw, i really hope those crazily great ideas of mine gets to be applied if i got in.

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Thursday, May 18, 2006

I'm living in hell...
hell of my own, i believe.
Life sucks.
at times.
esp now for me.
i'm down with flu or all sorts of common stuffs.
and i'm stuck with a pile of assignments.
a hell of projects and report.
and a election to go with.
a contract if still on from my aunt.
hell...
take me away, angel.
please...
dont leave me here alone to fend myself.
angel...where're u?

btw, grp project during grping sucks at times too...
might probably end up with some freaks who will over run you, kill you , step on you.
in the end, control you.

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

By the way, it sucks having a class of such module.
and it sucks with no one who understands you.
it juz concluded to a word, "sucks"

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I seriously hate this class.
f***. freak.
i hate the da** lecture module i'm sitting in today.
it's juz craps craps n more craps.
i shant say wad class is this freak i'm attending.
but ya, i've learnt nth again today.

and i'm hot up in my head.
hot with anger, frustration.
it s**ks.

and i'm sick, so bloody sick but i still sit in the class like some dumbo.
freaks...

btw, i went for the talk today with alan, seem like a nice advisor
but i hope i can make it thru the year if i gt selected.

freaky day, end it now.
f*** off

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Monday, May 15, 2006

went out ytd to party world with dear.
had great fun but coming home was pretty bad esp the taxi...
cuz there's too much traffic lights and i almost had no money to pay for it,
it exceeded our budget...
yucks...

well...had a terrible headache today and was sleeping on the train both going to school and coming back home..
lack of sleep, bad headache, sore throat, cant really swallow now...
awful..

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

Sometimes i find it so amazing the way he clicked with a child,
the way kids listen to him and all..
the ways he used to communicate with them.

all right, i went to malaysia ytd, a lond day with a long long queue of about 3 hours to kick the journey off with.
shopping, eating, movie, talking, crapping.
wow.
haha...watch poseidon.
great show, i like the plot, the effects, the sound.
came back later than midnight, and after washing up.
i just plop and sleep til this morning.
heez..

i love the times i hang out with you, honey

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

all right,
for ppl trying to contact me tmr and couldnt reach me,
it's best if u leave a sms in my inbox.
haha, i ownt be in singapore tmr..
juz tmr and anit of the following day

It's so so cool.
wahaha..gonna be real real fun day, i hope.
I miss you...
heez

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

had a great talk with my mentor
a great long one.
well, i've also decided now.
i've gt my support and i'm all for it now...
no campaign, abit exaggerating
but yes, my mind and heart is there now.

thinking back,
i went for the cca interview sort of alone.
i wasnt very scared because i knew in me.
i had fallen in love. not really with the cca at that time
but more like i fell in love with somebody and it makes me brave.
To put on a strong front all to prove herself. her worth. her bravery.
but as days goes on, i fell in love with my cca. madly in love, that i laughed and cried for my cca.
i realised only falling in love can make one brave.
i've never regret taking the cca, not even now.
it was the greatest choice i've picked.
all because of love.
which had turned into passion over the year.
I love you and i know u stay with me.

To my mentor and frenz:
I Love you peep, you've brighten my day, cheer me on.
Gave me the support, the courage that i re-found in myself.
Now i'm up, i'll be all for it.
Thank you.

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

well...now i heard the elections are coming in...
hmmm...i'm thinking...
thinking real hard...
my loved ones said i couldnt commit, not at yr 3 he said.
nothing is to my advantage now..

but i'm pretty sure, if i could just manage my time properly, it'll be fine...
at least tt's wad i hope..
guess, i'll look for my mentor tmr...
for advise.
couldnt help to have such a good mentor who brings us out. haha

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

today is the 14th month anniversary of me and dear...
but I'm at home...see...blogging...
arghz

It suddenly hits me badly when i know that tmr is the 8th of may...
4 years ago, on the 8th may...i remembered so clearly..
that was the day i first attached to a guy...
aw....hmm...well...

To me, in my point of view,
I think life is like a universe.
People around us revolves around just like a solar system.
Relatives and families as well as your loved ones are like the sun and the moon,
you see them everyday.
Great Friends are like the planets,
they never leave you out of their sight.
People that used to be your close friends are like shooting stars,
they were amazing then but they leave without a trace now.
Enemies or perhaps people whom one doesnt like and cause an impact in their life are like comets
They came, hit you in their way and go.
A universe it is

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

i've been so busy these few days.
but i love my life now
ytd did flower arrangement and i love it to bits.
heez...
today went out with our dear dear Ms Tek,
do social work. haha.
then me and gep went to goodwood cuz Dr Goh sayd gt exhibition.
heez. now i have a huge poster plus a white phaelonopsis!
keke..

I hope you come home safe and sound
i miss you

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Thursday, May 04, 2006

To you:
I'm sorry your friends left you and i couldnt be there for you.
I'm really sorry. and i hope you take care.

To you:
I have no idea what went wrong. but i'm sorry if i flared up at you.

To you:
Thanks for being there. The 7 weeks to know you better was great. Really, thanks.

To you:
Hey, thanks for being there and listening to all my complaints. Good to have a grp mate like you. thanks

To you:
Thanks for being there, always listening and showering me with TLC. you're my pillar of strength. thanks, dear.

To you:
Thanks for wanting to hear me out. Great to work with you too.

To you:
I have no idea what's wrong too. I falred up at you and i'm sorry. i just wanna get things done...ya..

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Seriously, i think people are selfish. It's always me, me and me in ppl's life.
I trying hard to save that very strand that still pulls us together as friend
The friendship we had was great.
But never would i have imagine that a little problem made us so distinct and it starts to strain on the friendship we have. I really don't wanna lose a friend yet i have my own wishes, and goals.
Please save me from all these things that is going to happen over the next few weeks.
Please.

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Does liking somebody equates to crime,
equate to wrong?
I hope not,
cuz I'm in love.

Have you wonder what hyhgience is?
It's so eeky to have a person beside you combing hair
and fropping hair.
All over.
yucks.
And btw u dun look any better than before combing,
just fresher.

BTW, saw leong ytd.
weets..
I think i miss them again.
All over again...

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

I hate what i went thru today.
really...

I miss the times when i caught your attention so easily.
Each time you walked past me, you'd have at least say,
"Hey, had your lunch? going for class now?"
But everything's gone..
gone are the days...
I saw you there, sitting up there.
I looked so intently at you but never,
Never did i caught your eyes.
Those eyes that used to communicate with me.
So many times, that i gave up on you.
Just moments before i board the bus,
I heard my name,
I turned around only to hear you say,
"I called your name twice leh"
So what response or what reaction should i give to a person who doesnt see me anymore?
"I'm sorry, I didn't hear you..and did you say you called me twice? I'm afraid you might need to call me a few more times these day."
"I'll miss the days you miss me, My Friend. Goodbye, take care."

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Monday, May 01, 2006

had a great day ytd.
really..
anyway, dear pulled me into that make-up shop
and made me looked like some barbie doll...
fancy putting on blushes...foundation...eye shadow...mascara..lipstick..
i still think it look devil-lish on me..
well..
i'll be quiet.
haha.

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