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Monday, July 31, 2006

ok. lots of flowers n pictures to share here.
lovely one, a sunflower preparing to bloom.

then one of which i brought home

hmm..next was Zinnia brought home by Atirah, found it extremely nice, like a bouquet in a love shape. haha

then i brought home one bunch of them as well...in a vase now... haha

hmm..then the actual bouquet learnt from my floristry class

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Saturday, July 29, 2006

ok, jus ignore the previous post.
blogging for me is jus another way of venting my internal frustration.
so dun be bothered by it.

anyway, had a great day ytd. went out!! with a bouquet of flower from my floristry class!!!
a B+ for ytd bouquet. the thing is it's roses!! pretty pink roses. haha

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Thursday, July 27, 2006

I'm a shit
I'm an ass
Fuck you

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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

ok, great news. i'll be going to where i want to go for my attachment.
great place, full of things to learn and hand-ons!! yay

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Sunday, July 23, 2006

so a girl in front of her computer screen
so a girl deep in her thoughts
thinking of everything that might happen to her
thinking of a future that is so near yet untouchable
her hands reaching out with her eyes closed

the gentle breeze blew
and that was all that is
nothing more

the quietness she is in
slowly as she breathe in
the birds chirped
the sound of crickets
the sound of nature
the voice of man
she opened her eyes, looking up at the great blue sky

what have you got installed for me today?
"Well, Today will be the day I'm preparing you for your tomorrow"
"GREAT!! As the girl starts to type out everything into this screen of hers yet again
Tomorrow swill be another step nearer to my future"

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Friday, July 21, 2006

ok, so i went out jus now
and came back alone

with tears filling the small frame
i told myself this,
"it's no big deal"
there's more to overcome, there's more to brave thru
you gotta be strong,
dun ever let that tears fall from where it belongs

if anything ever happen, tell yourself, there's more coming
you ought to be strong
it's his/hers/theirs disadvantages that they dont want me
i'm jus a lil disappointed but i'm not at the losing end

there's more to come, gal
be brave, walk thru it like you've been thru before

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and today i wanted to get my contact lens
but it hasnt arrive yet
humph..
cut my hair, bought a top for my coming interview.
now i can only wish i'll make it or else i'll ended somewhere that ubi doesnt want me anymore...

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thanks for all the birthday wishes starting at 11.30 before mt actual birthday itself from dear
haha, maybe he knew that i fell asleep before tt...
or perhaps i mention i'd fall in love to whoever that wishes me first
wahahaha
then huinee on the dot at 12mn
Co Hui, Sakeenah, dear again, wee fen, rong ee, lynn, kim, ling ling, yin chun, chio hui
kat and zhenming
plus all on the forum
thanks thanks

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

ok, so my birthday was a normal one
with my family celebrating for me.
nice cake
Black forest, my all time fav!

hmmm...and so today was zinnia fest
Essie looks so pretty!!!
yay!!
haha

oh, so i know that i'm still attached to the ubi place
till evening, i guess...
wif a sms...
a unconfirmed sms...
so i'll jus wait n see how...

hmmm, and my dearest friends bought me cookies,
very delicious wif a very nice pakage
let u peeps see part of it ba. haha

then some of us cut the sunflower out liao, so cute n lovable...
though many ppl stare at me like one kind
but i still like the sunflower,
so cheerful!

nice, right? arent u amazed?
i'm so proud to be called a garedner as of now.
it does not hurts anymore

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Monday, July 17, 2006

so, i watched recycle on fri.
after my flower arrangement class.
nice one, great day

and this goes me and A!!
yay!!
nice A!!
haha, well...who doesnt like A?

pirates on sun!!
nice show
watched it wif the other 10 ppl including one other birthday boy, my dear, friends of friends..
lalala

then i really have no idea they're celebrating mine as well...
cuz i dont think it was initially planned..
but still the cake is nice, the gift are nice too.
wil wil!
I've got it!!! haha
Plus one bouquet of flower from dearest...

And i did Zinnia flowers arrangement today
Big ones
And it's nice...
Cuz the flowers are from our final year project
We GREW them
And i love them

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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

and so...
my monday was a pathetic one..
with a tap without the "washer" or sth, i had to run in and out of the shadehouse.

worse, somebody mentioned that the tap wasnt off on friday.
the problem 1: i was at the shadehouse on fri
the problem 2: there was other ppl in the shadehouse and all i remembered was that i used the tap outside and i had albili...so my tap was off...
my problem 1: i felt so helpless that i'm the one who forgot when i wasnt
my problem 2: i felt maligned. i am innocent
my problem 3: i felt untrusted myself...
arghzzzzzzzz...someone pls help me clear the air...

hmmm then came tue, went to sentosa for the field trip.
a nice one
but
i cant help but say i'm starting to hate field trip
not the content
but i felt like a loner
a loner wandering around in my own world
arghzzzzzz
but night was better, darling took me out for dinner and movies..
had the fun out of my life, cracking up while going home
i'm loving you more and more each day.

so wed, today wasnt too good either...
this morning, the tap outside wasnt working as heard from Atirah
LD wasnt too good for me, i couldnt think, i couldnt contribute.
maybe perhaps i was a loner...
No, i am a loner

then marketing, again
the proposal had to be check by the lecturer who shall not be named.
our group did NOT submit
i felt so shitty
i have so many things to do
so many
and then more coming
it's shitty...
projects and presentation are shitty
so is my day

can you imagine,
the moment u wake up
the moment u step out of the bed
u felt shitty
everything's wrong
if i could sleep back and change my opinion, i would
but i couldnt...
so the whole day turned out shitty with shitty stuffs, shitty me, shitty people

please do not comment on the shitty parts
have no qualm to hear
not in the right mood
when will the right mood comes??
jus let me live my own shitty world..
cut the crap...
hush...
=x
*the world fell silent*

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Saturday, July 08, 2006

I'm such a ass
I do things that dont even please thyself
I hate eveything to the core at times
I'm a bad, evil girl who doesnt seem to know how to smile
I'm the girl who spoils people's mood
Aint I great?!
I love thyself way too much

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Friday, July 07, 2006

wheeeee
my pan pan!
dearie buying for me
wahaha

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

ytd the gardening was FUN!
but it was a muscle-aching, blisters forming session!!
hahaha...i'm a gardener and yes i wanna be a gardener...
no more regrets...
lalala..i'm a gardener!
I'm a horticulturist-to-be in disguise

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

u made me fall in love all over again

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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

i cant understand myself...
so many times, that i started to feel like i'm away from myself
a stranger whom i first met
a girl who could nv smile
a girl who tears for no reason

i'm lost once again
prince, will you leave me like what others did?
will u forsake me?
will u try and understand me all over again?
I miss myself...really...i dun even understand myself and yet
i expect u to understand me...
What logic?!
I'm sorry, Honey
Made u suffer w/o realising..
I'm a evil girl...i'm so evil

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ok, so i had a great sat.
America Independence Day!
woah...haha, firework up on my head.
nice American Food.
wahaha
isnt it amazing? the hearts, the planets..wahaha

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