- My Life Story ;

Sunday, April 30, 2006

OMG...
WTH..
why a good music piece always turns like a nuisnace on every sunday morning....
it's like hell....the girl upstairs, pls stop hitting the keys without rhythym...

*poof*
Projects are coming up...and more are on the way...
Manz...get a life, Jojo.
Get a life...

Oh, did i say, I love the lorry with the loud hailer at the top rallying?
GE is coming!
And how i wish i get to vote.
heez..
but underaged now.
well..haha, but i still like the feeling of lorry going round with sound enhance,
wahaha

Blogged @ 10:45 AM
always thinking -

Friday, April 28, 2006

suddenly recalled...
i was feeling real down today...

they went for dinner today..
but i'm alone...
alone walking down the packed road leading to the crowded bus stop.
i have no idea what's wrong
and i asked myself,
have i become another you overnight?
i hope not...
not that i dont like you,
but the class dont.
not that they seggregate me,
but i do feel alone at times.
i juz feel so shitty

Blogged @ 10:58 PM
always thinking -

OMG...
My course manager gave us another briefing and a welcome back to school...
she mentione about overseas university again...
i wanna go Australia to further study...
but part of me keep thinking about Hawaii...
Hawaii
Hawaii
OMG...
It MUST be YOU

Essie says she smell that scent...
the scent that i remember vividly...
that scent that will bring back memories.
BUT it was an old lady...
ARGHZ

JB
JB
JB
When will you get out of my mind.
A good 20 years of age gap...
my goodness...
Now, please leave me alone...
I shall not remember you anymore...
I just wanna lock u up in my mind
you need not appear every now and then.

JB
JB
JB

Blogged @ 8:13 PM
always thinking -

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Peat Moss...
Charcoal Chips...
Topsoil...
Burnt Soil...
Coco Peat...
Granular Fertiliser...
Compost...

arghz...
*faints*
I memorise all of them...
all of them...
did about 7 hrs + of practical...
manz...

Realise one thing...
JB has the surname Tay juz like my dearest...
hmm...

Alone facing the screen...
Alone to go to school...
alone to think of somebody i liked...
i just miss you lots.
and i hope i'm not alone

Blogged @ 4:28 PM
always thinking -

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

tired.
back hurts.
eyes closed...

OMG, we did mixing media...
and only 20 pots.
40 more to go, tmr continue @ 8am.
arghz.
bad
And ran out of ideas to write bout poem..
badbad...
and who know whether my teacher will really search this out..
well...
Let me think....
...
...
...
...
...
ok, still no idea.
off to sleep.
=P

Blogged @ 10:04 PM
always thinking -

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

wheee...
baby's back...
Jojo's back...
lalalala..
at least for now, i know...
I really hope things will go well now...
*phew*

Blogged @ 11:35 AM
always thinking -

Monday, April 24, 2006

Momo,
he asked me out!
haha.
I'm hoping things will turn out better after tonight

Jojo,
wish you luck then.
cheers

Blogged @ 4:31 PM
always thinking -

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Momo,
I'm sad.
Can you cheer me up?

hey, you!
I'm here to hear you out and nothing else,ok?

okok, now i lost Momo too...
she doesnt wanna cheer me up either...
Life sux...aint it?
I hate Life!!!!
Stupid Life.
yeah, stupify!
arghz

Blogged @ 8:32 PM
always thinking -

Momo,

He called!
But he hangs up...and we did not talk at all
i wonder why...
and i only feel sadder...
School's starting tmr and i really dread everything now...
All my plans juz backfired at me now...
arghz....
what life...

Jojo,
i'm sure he wanted to talk to you but met some prob.
you gotta stand strong, girl.
School's starting and u ought to do sth about it by tmr.
wake up, baby.
stop thinking whatever things that makes u feel negative.
now, be brave and move on...

Blogged @ 5:48 PM
always thinking -

Saturday, April 22, 2006

My dear Jojo...
why isnt there a single call for you?
has the world forgottten you?
why doesnt your prince call?
Is he set on forgetting you?
does he remember you anyway?
Are you thinking of him?
you better not, Jojo...

Momo...he once said he loves me.
he says he still does.
but i have no idea why he doesnt call me..
Is he waiting for me to call him?
or perhaps he's juz busy...
maybe, he is...

Arghz, my Jojo...
If he remembers you, he'll call.
Since he isnt free now, perhaps having fun, juz let him be
Do not disturb him.
Give your boy the freedom he needs.
If he loves you, you feel it too.
juz like the way you did before.
you'll be the princess he loves.
you must be happy, remember?
Pls do, Jojo.
Stay strong.

Momo...
where are you going to?
Dont leave me alone here...
I dont know what to do.

you'll know what to do soon.
he'll ask for you.
He will...
He's your prince...
Do not forget about him.
He's your love.

I'm in a whirl, seriously...
I'm still at a lost...
I hope my dearest will call me soon
I really hope...
I really miss you...
my eyes are swollen...and it doesnt recover...
Joseph dear...where are you?
Momo ask me not to forget you.
I know too...but u seem to forgot everything about me...
arghz....Kill me...

Blogged @ 11:21 PM
always thinking -

Wheee....been a long long time since i ask my mum to go shopping with me.
Went town, so hip.
haha...
at the very least, it did kill jojo...
jojo was forgotten at that moment...
Momo was around then...
she feels happier.

Mummy, i'll spend more time with you from now on,
I've got lots of time for you now.
Cuz you're my mom.
Juz that sometimes ago,
my life juz wasnt think about and wasnt planned.
I was living for myself.
Now, no more cuz Momo came.
Haha...

bought loads of clothes for the coming school semester.
Nice nice.
heez...
My dear dear Joanna,
are you sure you're ok?
Are you sure you're fine?
are you sure you're alright?
I sure Hope and wish I am...

To my dearest:
Have you wonder how much i love you?
Have you wonder how much i think of you?
Have you ever doubt my love for you?
I so miss you...
But i cant say it out..
I cant bring myself to say it and
It hurts real bad...
I miss you..
I miss you all my life...
I Will Miss You and I am Missing You...

Life juz sux, ain't it?

Blogged @ 9:35 PM
always thinking -

To my dearest Jojo:

Please wake up...
The love you experienced,
the care you think that existed,
the guy you think of had all along been a dream
Please wake up now...
He doesnt exist...
Everything doesnt exist...
Nothing is true.
All along my 18+ years,
nothing wonderful existed in reality
It only happens in dream..
The guy you hold on to is juz vanishing from your life.
He doesnt want you anymore,
stop bothering him.
Stop crying this minute.
There's no more point no matter how much you loves him...
Life is unjust...
You'll never get back what you have given in and
I have learnt from it.
Countless of times...
But what's the use?
Bye bye, my dear if you really wish to...
I do not have a choice.
I do not wish to...

-Momo

Jojo:
Could you believe that 1 could cry for hours?
haha, well...since 10pm last night...
counting from my finger...i took 2 hrs plus last night before my eyes swell up and i went to sleep.
and this morning from ten till now...about 2 hrs again...
A tots of 4hrs currently..
I wonder how long this will take...
juz let me get back to life...
I wanna be dead..
Momo, pls survive...and defeat Jojo...
she's not meant to exist...
her boy ask her to think over it again and again...
Momo, will you take me with you...through the semester...
through the year...
down the many roads...
Let her die within herself..
She'll learn from it and you shall teach her how.
Momo, i love you. I shall learn to love the new me...no more Jojo for the time being...
Jojo is dying off...
Let her be..

Blogged @ 11:40 AM
always thinking -

Friday, April 21, 2006

Heaven gave me the lease of life..
and he shall take me back with him
Life is unjust...
I've sort of decided to be dead....
really...
Life sux...
badly...
I shall go to heaven and see how the life is given and being taken back
just like me...

evil laugh...
Boo...Joanna's dead...
so dead...
so lifeless..

Blogged @ 11:26 PM
always thinking -

I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...

IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT, I'LL THINK OVER IT.
I DO NOT have anymore choice right now...

I suddenly remember what Essie told me....
Going across the road or down the road on my wrist...
I really hate it...
Life is unjust...
I'm given a life so that I can search for my own Justice...
Yeah right...
Go ahead and hate me.
Ask me to think..
And I will...

I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...
I'll think over it...

Blogged @ 10:27 PM
always thinking -

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Crept in quietly
But noisily in action
It's been raining so hard the past few days
The snake out there must have been in hiding
Waiting for the very prey to come close by

The boy who made me talked
The boy who hears and listens me out
The boy who will hold on to me and stay by me
The boy who hugs and pampers me
HE's the only boy who made me waits,
made me cry, made me smile.
He's the prince who taught the feeling of loved and missed.

Blogged @ 9:21 PM
always thinking -

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

What Luck

The man who is so cheerful at all times,
turns out to be a helpless baby when hearing of cholestrol and hypertension.
The journey that one hope to be filled with knowledge experience,
turns out to be a office-political, face looking experience.
The place that seems to be of serenity,
turns out to be snkes infested.
The road that will leads them home,
turns out to be a place where car almost brush into oneself.
The grasscutter that rids grasses of height,
turns out that will almost make one go blind. ™

you see, the man is my favourite supervisor.
The journey is my vacation job i'm now in.
The place is the path that leads down a stairs.
The road is the place people walks on.
The grasscutter sent something that hits near my eye, less then 1 cm by accuracy.

I SERIOUSLY HATES today.
It is rubbish.
Haha, can i name today after lousy day?
hmm...at least for me, i guess...

Blogged @ 8:06 PM
always thinking -

Monday, April 17, 2006

Streaks of Lightning Flashes across that peaceful sky
The thunder finds its way up there too
Rain started pouring down
As the girls sat there wondering what to do next.
Life is full of wonders
there is no more point thinking what to do next
And when the sky lights up again
The girls shall run out and play ™
________________________________

The work load had piled up
And the books had come in to surround me too
I'm stuck with endless research
Only to face the most competitive enemy
The enemy that stays in me,
the devil, it is
My dearest Angel, will you please win the war for me? ™

Blogged @ 9:56 PM
always thinking -

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Dear dear bring me to eat the best, biggest yummy yummy crabby today!
Woots...thankies...
I lurve it...down to the bits and pieces of it.
haha

Blogged @ 9:36 PM
always thinking -

That cute little doggy next door died...
couldnt say how i much i feel
though dunno it well but it hurts real lots to lose something you know...
That car accident, i sort of saw it...not exactly but i know it's a car accident with a lady driver...
arghz...

That dog is longing for her owner to come home overseas...
but it did not get to see her anymore...
it had left and went to heaven...
only to be missed by everyone...
Doggy, I love you too.. ™
*prays for you*

Blogged @ 10:11 AM
always thinking -

Friday, April 14, 2006

this is found in out Work Room!
One Big furry Spidey! Whaaaaah

See da snake at our work place!
It's Roadkilled and Essie loves them.
Weets

Blogged @ 8:30 PM
always thinking -

hmm...
I feel so much better now...
Would like to apologise for ytd...
but at the same time, I'm still not happy about ytd lah.
juz that now i think i shouldnt have flared up...

Blogged @ 8:25 PM
always thinking -

Oh well, i shall continue again...
humph...

On the road they stand,
was a road unfamiliar to them initially
But as time goes by,
the road became their friend
Now as the time is drawing near, that road shall only serve as a memory that stays with them

I guess I'll miss that road...
__________________________________

At first sight, he was just a plain young man
His look slowly grows into her
The laughters that is so contagious became her memories
That familiar face she hopes for everyday will be gone in a week time
only to be reminded occassionally.
I'll miss lots of people.
I'll miss you, I know I will
_____________________________________

Life is a journey full of colours
The past in black and white,
The present in Rainbow,
The future in Monochrome...
Somehow, I feel my journey is losing colours day by day...
_____________________________________________

Where's that somebody who's supposed to come?
Where's that somebody I'm waiting for?
I've waited too much...
Time to search for something to do!
*Giggles*
_________________________________________________

I'm in a whirl...
shitty life, isnt it?
arghz...
*runs*

Blogged @ 12:17 PM
always thinking -

Thursday, April 13, 2006

penned down so many poems...
or perhaps juz words to some people...
i had too much time to spare while slacjing and waiting...
well...

Day by Day, he drifted away
The images of him blurred and tears started flowing
It was painful to cry but she kept it away from the world outside
She chose to cry mentally and it only hurts her more
The boy who stops coming to read here hurts her mentally
She'll be crying herself to sleep once again
He never knew her, neither did she
When will the girl start smiling and laughing again from the bottom of her heart
____
I cry because I know you
I'm being somebody not important again but I'm still not a fish neither a prawn
Do NOT use bait...
It NO longer work
STOP compromising too!
I HATE IT!!!
________________________________________________________

That scent lingering along the corridor is aluring
It isnt fragrant but it is sweet
That sweetness stay...
on the mind it lives...
In the heart, it remember that aluring scent that took a girl's thoughts away
Missing the sweetness, she will...
____________________________________
F*** YOU...
NOt WRITING ANYMORE UNTIL I FEEL BETTER
ARGHZ

Blogged @ 10:38 PM
always thinking -

F*** YOU!
ARGHZ...
btw i waited for one hour 15 minutes

Blogged @ 10:35 PM
always thinking -

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

JBJBJBJBJB...

Can i say i like JB?

Well...as a supervisor of course.
Wahaha...
I'm missing the scent...
and i know when school starting, that scent will still linger on my mind...
ARGHZ JB, u and ur pig pig...
Humph..

Blogged @ 10:07 PM
always thinking -

I am NOT a FISH
NEITHER am I a PRAWN
Stop using a bait on me, it doesnt work and it only makes it worse.
YOU're NOT some FISHING ROD OR SOME FISHERMAN.
GET A LIFE.

Stop feeding me information that will not lead to details.
i DO NOT need them.
you PEEPS, please stop the fishing session for me.
I had ENOUGH.
ARGHZ...

_________________________________________

We got treated!
well...they treated us...
lots of food in thai chinese cuisine restaurant...
Kang Kong, Baby squids, Tom Yam Soup, Sea Bass, Grouper, Butter Prawns, Lemon Chicken, Beef Gailans, Pineapple Rice...WOW WOW...My goodness...Essie says she's still hungry...hmm...weird...

I AM MENTALLY SICK NOW...
DOWN...

Blogged @ 8:19 PM
always thinking -

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

arghz...sleepy
had nth to do in the day and so much to do in the night.
FYP starting to take over my life...
and my work's losing in my life...
manz...havent stitch anything...

Blogged @ 9:27 PM
always thinking -

Monday, April 10, 2006

went back to NP for FYP today...
gonna do alot of discussions!!!
hmm...research.
As of TODAY, Our 3rd year has commences!
oh...manz...

Blogged @ 9:08 PM
always thinking -

Saturday, April 08, 2006

In and out, Up and down goes the needle..
thread by thread, it forms a picture...
it forms the thoughts...
it forms a kind of love.
I Love Stitching!
Cross Stitching is so fun.

haha..

think i'm pretty well now.
Gonna get back to school on monday for my FYP.
whee...i miss HLM Peeps.
real lots.
but gotta leave my essie in AVA alone..
hmm...
*pray Suhaime wont bully ya*
wahaha..
well...my eyes are sleepy for a reason...
a reason and tt's stitching!
heez.
*runs back to stitch*
the boy's about to form, more colours for him and he's done. The girl's coming out too.
i'm so amazed of myself.
haha.
I Love Me

Blogged @ 4:34 PM
always thinking -

Monday, April 03, 2006

am so sick ytd...
down with headaches, stomach ache..
then finally fever...38.6º C
until ytd night when i threw up everything...
feel so much better then..

still having headaches...
bad ones...

Each time i fell sick, i think of you...
i wonder how you are...
i'm so scared i'll lose you one day...
so scared that i tried to contact you so much...
i'm sorry...
really..
I am

Blogged @ 10:53 AM
always thinking -

Saturday, April 01, 2006

hmm...am thinking abt snakes...
arghz...
they say there is one...
a cobra..

Essie says when there is one, there is another one...
they come in pair...
my goodness...
i better be alive...
*runs*

gotta go down np on 10th april
miss u peeps real lots

Blogged @ 6:20 PM
always thinking -