- My Life Story ;

Thursday, November 29, 2007

been some time since i blogged...
lots of things happen.

things happen for a reason,
learn from them and let it be.
it's my life.
i choose the way i wanna live my life...

sighs... more things next week.
i like my class today.
my colleagues are a funny bunch.
seriously.
haha.

Blogged @ 7:48 PM
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Friday, November 23, 2007

thanks babes.
=)

i guess what you peeps said turns out right.
things are better and smoother now...
at least, i dont feel so upset anymore.

at least that case was sort of solved.
May God bless you peeps.
i miss you guys lots...

Blogged @ 8:45 PM
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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

i'm still upset...
more of down...
sighs...

i couldnt work in peace,
i couldnt take my lunch like usual,
i couldnt stop thinking and end up eyes watery
worse, i couldnt tell a single person abt this...

readers read,
readers think.
but they never will know what happens...

depressed...
my friend asked me
" you like to be busy ah?"
"ya, i guess so for now"
"sicko lah, take ur lunch, k"
thanks friend, for the care...
but i really cant stop a moment now, i really feel so down...

Blogged @ 6:05 PM
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

santa came early.
i've got the selected one day course i've wanted.
and i finally pass my freaking final evaluation.
wahaha.
and so far, the best grade i've been trying out.
=)

friend, it's not that i've forsaken our friendship.
it's just that you and i know that it's almost impossible for us to return to where we belong.
even communication is hard now.
com'on.
do a good deed, stop mentioning those things...
it'll be easier to let go.
for me.

i'm searching for the laughter i've lost since one month i started where i'm working.
the most i could do now, is seek my wish, make them come true and smile.
tt's the best i could give myself during office hours.
private times, only my best and closest friends can cheer me up.
you no longer has the authority to...
cuz i couldnt smile more than one heartbeat time each time we converse.
that short time span our friendship...
well, get over it.

i've just lost one of my closest friends like tt...
i've just had the worst dinner cuz of my expectation...
i've just lost myself in a night of thinkings...
i've just had the worst time i'm still going thru

Blogged @ 9:04 PM
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Monday, November 19, 2007

silly girl,
you're crying for a friend again.
u broke your own promise you've once made to yourself.
never to do that again, yet you did it...
again, over friendship.
damn...

think over it.
God knows.

tt vodka

Blogged @ 9:05 PM
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Sunday, November 18, 2007

secretly...
somehow, i've shed tears again..
sickening...
over friendship, i guess
it always happen...
eversince kindergarten...
i've been shedding tears like nobody business.
hmmm...

cant say much...
heaven and fate says i cant.
keep to yourself, they said silently.
and you'll be happier one day, in times to come , they promise me.
to agree to their terms or not, it's in my control.
think over it, Jo..

Blogged @ 2:16 PM
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Saturday, November 17, 2007

sickening.
no more nonsense.
keeping quiet.
watch where you're heading to, xstitchx

Blogged @ 9:46 PM
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damn you.
seriously.
i'm not in just a fit of anger so i blogged this.
it's more than that, friend.

I'm upset and seriously disappointed.
thanks, break my trust i had for you.
there's no way that i'm going to trust you 100% from now on.
maybe that's what you wish.

A lady shed tears for something she values and treasured,
while a man shed tear because of trouble and problems.

I dun give a F***ing damn abt it anymore.
move on, xstitchx.
dont bother about tt.
you live your life.
your other friends still cares for you, isnt that enuff?

Friend, in my fit of anger, i shall say.
"I dun bl**dy give a f***ing dam* abt you anymore"
"I shall only liase for the sake of co-ordinating"
"DAM* YOU"

there isnt even a word of apologies.
sighs

Blogged @ 11:08 AM
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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

i see the sun's rising.
but nth for us yet.

i miss you.
i did.
i just dont wanna say it till now.
i've no regrets.
but i couldnt say n i guess u wouldnt know anything either.

sickening...

Blogged @ 8:41 PM
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Monday, November 12, 2007

somehow what you says still makes sense.
somehow you hit all my spots.
somehow you still understands me.

maybe i was just confused.
maybe i just didnt wanna admit.
maybe i just dont know what i'm doing.

i suddenly feels so wild.
i'm not set free.
but i feel i'm going wild.
i threw my tantrum like nobody business.
i got angry/upset for small lil things.

it's still not right, somehow...in someway.
i actually feels hurt and broken.
lost and confused.
i laughed at myself for being silly.
i closed my eyes and all i see are images of us.

even the usual morning in the office went terribly wrong.
i cut myself accidentally...
it was bleeding, so much...
i took my phone...
but i put it back.
somehow, the cuts made me wants to pick up the phone and text you.
but second thoughts, i shouldnt.
it's not right.
what can you do?
rush over?
it's silly.

Jo, what's wrong with you?
is this really what you want?

what are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, i'm lost w/o you

Jo, for goodness sake, time to wake up.
move on, if you have to.
move on if you bear to
move on if only you dare to

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

i'm sorry, boy.
i've failed.
and it has been proven now...

we're not meant to be.
i couldnt just tell anybody, suffer alone.
angels told me. it's my fault and i better not just say
close friends knows.
good friends read this and will know.
normal friends, i guess shall know only when i tell...

God, please bless the boy happiness, w/o me.
thank you

Blogged @ 5:06 PM
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Saturday, November 10, 2007

lots of thoughts.
lost in thoughts.

i wished our prayers can be heard.
somewhere.
for my friend and I.
may our problem be solved.

couldnt share.
suffer alone, xstitchx
you have no rights to tell other...
u gotta understand them yourself first before others.

i'm tired.
i'm sick.
there's no answer for me.
sighs

Blogged @ 11:52 AM
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Thursday, November 08, 2007

nice to catch up.
been some time.
gosh.
time flies.

Blogged @ 12:30 PM
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Wednesday, November 07, 2007

ahhhh...
sickening.
been thru ups and down these days.
am really tired.

my work, my boyfriend, my colleagues, my friends.
and whatever shit that i went thru or going thru now...
sighz...

guess life is like that ba.
forever.
nothing good last a lifetime.

blogging using my new lappy now.
guess this is one of the few happy things that i could depend on ba.

darling, it's not that i dont love you anymore.
i've changed, i know.
and i'm still changing.
i dont like this either...
but what to do?
i miss you, baby.

if life is a book, love must have been the most wonderful story that is written.
a story full of colours, full of laughters.
full of oomfort.

if life is a story, knowing you must have been the best chapter in the story.
sweetie, do you believe me?
i sure hope you do.

now, not only u feel me changing.
but my colleagues, my friends, my parents, my brother.
momo, are you there for me?
mickey, are you there?
sighs...

the chapter of my story is not doing good now...

-xstitchx

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Tuesday, November 06, 2007

been up and down.
wanted so badly to harden my heart
but each time, i saw those eyes...i couldnt..
i only end up myself feeling the way u feel.

you meant so much to me.
so much
that is why i had that thoughts.
well...
darling, it's part and parcel of life.
take it and learn them.

whatever we had went thru, we're still together now.
cuz i couldnt...

it's just being so unfair to you.
i couldnt commit
now i couldnt promise either.
cuz i broke my promises...
too much a time.
my chapter is in a mess now.
well...

Blogged @ 8:04 PM
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Saturday, November 03, 2007

my life is full of surprises

somehow, things always dont turn out the way i expected it to happen

silence creeping in again

Blogged @ 9:58 PM
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i jus bought my lappy.
wheee.
haha.

=)
weekends...
shall see how...

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