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Monday, April 30, 2007

bad start in the morning.
was kinda getting scolded.
haiz.
work.
manz.

am just lucky to have a tiny break from work tmr.
labour day.
man.
wished everyday is holiday now.

kept bugging andi, asking him whether he's going to the park.
and humph he left without me, in the end.
cuz of emergency, and i was attending to sth.
anyway, he came back a lil while later to pick up something.
so i took tt opportunity to go out as well this time.
told him my reason...

well, i was depressed.
i couldnt carry on working after getting busted in the morning anyway,
a break from work, going into park.
getting fresh air did helps a lil though.
not much, but at least, the feeling of driving buggy and compliment from my shifu, andi.
nth beats it.
one day, i shall call him shifu liao.
no longer by name.
cuz i think he's up for it.

BTT on 2nd may.
*prays*

<less than two and a half hours of ur presence, and i'm starting to miss u, hunny.>

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Sunday, April 29, 2007

lots to write for today...
many thoughts on the train ytd after some tele-conversation with dear jeslyn.
haha.
then after eading some blog post of adelyn, something made me wanna post too.
it's important.
but 1st thing, first.

ytd, was on the train and blogging all thoughts into my handphone
here goes:
"0710hrs, 27th april 2007

Trust=believe
it used to be so simple
but it no longer is

i used to give eveyone i know the basic trust.
100%. i believe them

but somehow, somewhere, somebody betrayed my trust in human.

now i've decided.
trust should be earned.
it's not supposed to be given just like that.
at least when someone betrayed my trust, it wont hurt so much anymore.

i've just lost all my trust in everyone, except my family and my love.
please let me trust u peeps, for u'll be the only ones closest to me now.

Trust.
What's that now?
Trust= earn to make people believe"

Next, on adelyn's post.

i believe u feel dissappointed.
so am i.
i dunno if u know or u feel it or not.
but come on, it's hard, i'm still struggling because i cant go for any outings.
i believe i still have my passion for the club.
afterall, it's where u bacome my longest friend i had in poly.
afterall, it's where i met my love.
my friends.
my crush.
my teams.
my juniors.

i've always longing to go for the outings.
but i have my commitments, some stuff just have to come first before others.
i'm not saying that GLs means nothing or not as important as other things.
i kept asking why i didnt go for camp, for outing.
why nobody understand the passion i have for the clubs.
i wanted to go badly.
everytime.
but something restrained me.
something i couldnt explain.

and the outing, u were mentioning abt only a certain grp of ppl turn up for the batch
everytime.
hiaz.
i wish i could explain this.
they're the people who attend almost all the outings and camp now, for our batch.
i'm not saying they're the cause that our batch of ppl seldom turn up anymore.
but u and i know,
it's a barrier that some of our friends dont wanna break through.
just like ice breaking.
some ppl just doesnt wanna make a move, and we couldnt help it.
we could advise.
and i believed i've tried.
ended up in arguements and hurt all feelings.
ended up i couldnt go as well.

girl, i understand how u feel.
we're both caught in the middle.
going or not.

i miss gls.
as much as u do.
that passion...

by the way,
i miss Andre.
esp after reading a friend's blog.
manz.
all of a sudden, thought of him...
funny.
i wanna go Aussie 1 fine day too.
(girl, u on ma?

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Friday, April 27, 2007

so it's a busy day for me.
really
went all over.
rushed back to office during lunch time.
had Mac.
haha, bought Andi's share as well.
since he love eating food.
and he treats me all the time.
so at least i feel better buying his lunch today.
uncle wee dont wanna eat mac though
a pity
cuz i paying
haha

gotta rush loads of things now.
lots.
pretty stressed up.
shall apologise now in case i happened to flare up at anyone these few days.
just let me know, tolerate for a lil while.
i'm sorry.

<ain't so happy>

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Thursday, April 26, 2007

ok, so i did my drawing today.
was asked to do it.
i ended up feeling more miserable than happy.
cuz i had my limit.
i couldnt draw, no matter how hard i try.
i need guidance.
somewhere.
and yes, Andi did helped me a lil.

i finished the drawing.
he said i'm a fast learner, i learn things fast, just like the buggy.
but i again, i had my limit.
i know it's merely a pass for myself.
using my own standard.
he's maybe trying to make me feel better by not being so frank.
but i know.
i've got so much to learn.
really, esp drawing, designing.
that's what i need....
anyway, somehow, somewhat i heard him estimate the cost of the mini project i'm doing.
it's worth 3k plus.
they're saying it's small amount.
but i was thinking, if this went thru the client side.
3k is alot for a start to me.
though the earning is for company, and not me.
well.

<lots to learn, girl. more to go>

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

ok, so i was in the office today
admin work
lots.

managed to get out into the park twice today.
hit the bin the first time for the morning rounding.
arghz.
bad turning.

but everything's smooth after that.
going at a much much faster speed now.
feel as though racing sometimes
went thru the curve at top speed.
haha, and yes.
good turning.
felt proud of myself.
=)

rained very heavy today.
managed to get a lift to the station though.
thanks, Mike.
he's my boss's friend.
anyway.
haha.

<let me get some work that i'd enjoy, please>

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

did planting proposal today.
haha
at least, i feel good doing it now. esp, when i print them out.
cuz it look pretty nice, good enough for presentation.
maybe if my lady boss allows me... i shall try drawing part of it tmr.
cuz i heard her says she want me to try but dunno enough time for me to try though.

didnt have spare time to really visit the park today till 4+, just b4 i head home.
asked Andi to drive for rounding at 4+ cuz he's a faster driver.
and half way thru, there's this "grass lizard" (he told me the name) on his buggy front screen.
he got freaked out, he says "jia lat, must get rid, if not later goes into my pants, how?"
haha, funny man...
always nv failed to make my day.
people just like him to be in the park.
really.
the public like him pretty much, smiling wherever he goes.
thanks, Andi.

and lastly, thanks Frankie.
for the lift home.
haha.

and yes, i finally went for a haircut tt i dragged for so long.

<there's still so much to learn and do>

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Monday, April 23, 2007

lots of work
lots
and i mean it.
it's the first time i had no time to think of anything since i started working.

went to the park, and Andi is humorous.
he always is.
anyway, heavy rain since 3pm, i guess.
and it didnt really stopped when i'm heading home, until i reached the station then stopped.
haha.
the rain did subside though.
but Andi "forced" sort of, make me take the huge umbrella with me so i wont get drenched.
haha, and when i reach home with tt umbrella, my mum and brother was, "eh, u forgot umbrella?"
no, i didnt. i remembered my umbrella, just tt it's too small to really keep me out of that rain.
then i proceed to open the umbrella to let it dry.
"woah?!" there goes my brother.
he was like wow, tt umbrella is huge.
"it's like those at the beach kind of umbrella, where it's on the table kind."
yeah, it's tt huge.
my mom commented tt next time dun use it, cuz it's huge, if wind blow, i might fly up with it.
haha, cute mom i have.

anyway, enough of umbrella.
i finally posted out my staff pass n tag of sentosa today.
kinda miss it now.
yucks...

and this morning, huge fight at office.
arguements, quarrels.
more in the afternoon.
then peace.

<pls let me be myself, boss>

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

so i'm in here again
thanks, dear.
i'm feeling better.

ytd was awful, big fight.
my fault.
hiaz...
i'm sorry...

<striving for the better>

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Friday, April 20, 2007

bad times these few days.
i had too much.
i hope the weekdays get shorter
working hours to minimal.
not that i dont like what i'm doing now...
but more of the people.

i cant seem to work along with top management.
so far only the foreign workers plus the 2 uncles in the office are nice.
haiz...

anyway, drove Andi, one of the abovementioned uncle out to park today.
that's perhaps one of the very few things i enjoyed doing for my work now.
cuz i get to see my park, drive my buggy.
communicate with people, check the workers.
feel the surroundings, absorb in the scenery.
nothing else beats that.

site work, perhaps is nice only when i was in that island.
but afterall, life moves on.
forget the past, i shall.
move on, i should.

<at a loss>
<i miss you, hunny>

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

ok.
so i drove the buggy round the park today!
hooray!
haha.
and yes, the buggy's still in a piece, good condition, didnt fell into the lake.
and no one's injured.
haha

=D
am so happy.

<wish everyday is like today>
<just that i miss you, way too much>

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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

ooh... long time nv update. haha.
no access.
no time.
heehee.

anyway, i passed my evaluation!!
haha.
theory test in may.
practice driving also start in may
haha

<tough life>

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Friday, April 13, 2007

finally done with theory lessons
man
next up, evaluation test, then my test.
then the final evaluation and test.
and all my practicals plus test
The practicals are filling up super fast.
and it's awful, cuz i'm in need of slots, so i try and take wadever that suits and is available.
ended up now, i got a 1 month gap in between a lesson. shall see how soon la.
haiz.
then it can only start next week.
now all filled up. even june is filling up. sianz

now, i'm yearning for my pay.
the past ot pay and the coming pay for the month.
haiz...

<hard up for cash>

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

liar...
u've lied...
friends, dont ever lie to me.
i hate it.

you can try lying to me
but once u've started, you shall never had my words 100% truthful to u anymore
it's my promise.

maybe i should give you one more chance since i didn't make this clear beforehand.
NOW...
DO NOT ever lie to me

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Friday, April 06, 2007

life sucks
i'm serious

it sucks.
and i'm reconsidering for the moment

maybe i should change my path..
should i???

arghz...
come on, i've just started and nobody out there understand.

Prove your worth, Jo.
do it and prove them wrong!!!

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Sunday, April 01, 2007

another lessson coming up.
i'm still unsure of the system though
arghz...
should i get my test date le?
hmmm...

anyway, working is fine so far

business still in discussion
nothing is confirm so far
will hear more first before plunging in, i guess
haha

missing you, honey

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