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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

been quite a while since i blogged..
had some thoughts in mind today...

Arent friends supposed to be always there when u couldnt even cheer yourself up?
Arent friends supposed to stay with you till the world ends?

Or had i just took them for granted thinking that they will always be there,
thinking friends are meant to be this way,
or perhaps thinking those people in front of me are my friends when they are not?

Sometimes, i felt i was a let down.
i was a kid that no one likes
no one wants
no one loves
sometimes...
i feel that
more than ever nowadays...

if one day,
the world ends,
take those people who claim to be my friends first
they werent my friends
they arent
they never is
i dun have to live with friends
i always thought they're the most important people who will make up my life..
but sometime, it gets so wrong..
so wrong..
sometimes, they are your friends..
and sometimes, NOT
people DO NOT equates to friends

Blogged @ 10:15 PM
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Saturday, June 24, 2006

evil evil...
12.20 now
was supposed to meet at 12nn
but then...change of time at 11.58...
well..so i'm in here crapping...complaining or nagging
wadever u call this...
arghz...
waiting for time to fly now

Blogged @ 12:20 PM
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

alright, so i had a mini gathering ytd..
my sec sch frenz.
wahaha...been so long...
yup, usual la, crappy group of gals..
blur queen, next time change name lah, late queen...
*giggles*
hmmm...nice pizza..
still in the gathering mood la..
heehee..

well...spend more than half a day in school...
projects...
manz...
the thoughts of semester ending started to haunt me so badly...
boo
btw, cant help abt going for gl outing..
i'm really having nightmare now la...
haiz..
projects...

Blogged @ 8:39 PM
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Monday, June 19, 2006

i wanna go OIAP...
again..
it strikes me so bad..
made me think so much..
so much...
NSW...again...
NSW, i wanna go...

thinking about staying there,
lunching there...
doing household chores..
sleeping there...
i'm lost
so lost..
will anybody pick me up and tell me what to do next??
i have roughly 48 hours more to consider..
roughly...48 hours counting down...

Blogged @ 11:16 AM
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Sunday, June 18, 2006

you will live to regret..
one day...
when all you hear is silence..
when suddenly, you're shut out of the world,
you'll understand me...

yay, i'm having a secondary school mini-gathering!
jus the 8 of us, having meal..
i sure wish we could turn time back..
and i wish that the gathering come real fast...

Blogged @ 9:09 PM
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Friday, June 16, 2006

i've got so much up in my mind now...
so much...
there will be OIAP for our course.
da**
i wanna go...
i wanttttt...
but need an extra 2k on my own to go...
OIAP..
i want
really..
at a lost now...arghz...
OIAP..
OIAP...
shit lah, i want..

Blogged @ 8:22 PM
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

okay, so i went school ytd, in hope of a meeting for marketing project
and *poof* after a little of discussion, i ended in jurong point fish n co
wahaha...nice food...seafood platter for the 3rd time in a month, i guess
twice in fish n co, once in cartel.
yummy...
*poof* i'm tired...

bootes new char:
warrior lvl 9
mage lvl 14

casso:
currently at lvl 36

wahaha..i hope i can level all of them this week...
a little hard for casso, i guess

Blogged @ 2:03 PM
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Monday, June 12, 2006

okok, like what dear say...
i shall mention this in my blog...
wahaha...
okok...
went out to town ytd with dearest, his sister n his sister's friends...
felt so old among them...though not the oldest..
heehee...
but then it was really nice, esp to go out with his sister...
went marina square

went to play pool as well...then had dinner at cartel...
then hmmm...esplanade, yes...esplanade, there's one nice picture on the ground, so cool...

then the merlion...arghz...bad...it wasnt there at that time...

and instead i've got this...

Blogged @ 2:43 PM
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Saturday, June 10, 2006

it was so scary, the nightmare i had today...
in the wee hours of the morning...
that nightmare took away my dearest..
made me sat up in my bed and sobbed so badly...
i couldnt help...
jus by thinking of losing someone so dear is scary enough..
worse is that dreams are so real that u'll see the image..
so real..

Blogged @ 9:00 PM
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Friday, June 09, 2006

yay!
let's celebrate, the ending of paper today.
woots..
felt so relieved...
wahaha..okok
i'm sick..

Blogged @ 8:22 PM
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

had a rather long IM talk with a ex-classmate..
gosh....time flies...
Australia..
hmmm...
i wanna go there...i wish i could...
or perhaps i would...

you made me wanna go Australia..
you made it interesting...
you made me wanna fly over right now just to meet you
jus to study
jus to have fun
i kinda miss you...

thinking back...
hmmm...that perfect gentleman you were...
one of the best foreigner friend that i have...
i miss you

Blogged @ 9:13 PM
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Monday, June 05, 2006

I am NOT ur good friend..
we are NOT meant as friends..
NOT...
i'ver search myself and it's love...
i know and i feel...
i dun need u as a fren...
i cant accept this...
never...

when one day the world crumbles down,
i would still believe that i love you as a lover and never as a fren
let me live in myself again...
and be drown

Blogged @ 12:41 PM
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Sunday, June 04, 2006

i'm sorry if i hurt anybody in the process of getting things done.
i'm sorry should there be a need in apologising but i din at that moment.
i have no idea what's wrong..
everyone seem to be moody..
and i mean the whole lot of us working together and feeling moody together..
i really hopes things will turn for the better soon...
i miss myself...
the me that i am...
i miss everyone, the everyone that you used to be...

Blogged @ 4:54 PM
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Friday, June 02, 2006

loneliness sought me out again...
among the mass of people...
friends come in many forms..
so many...

Yet i always bump into the same few forms...
same...
since i was a kid...
since the days i got bullied around...

though no longer called bullied at the current stage now..
cliques formed and splited...
comes and goes...
you'll get kicked around and no one really cares..
no one...
nobody see your existence...
you live alone...
until you're needed...

i so wanted to be one selfish kid out there
where people detest you
where there is all sorts of reasons to hate you unlike the situation now
when you tried to be nice and ended up hating yourself more than ever

Blogged @ 9:44 PM
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